Politik

Hari ni.. tak banyak kerja nak dibuat... dua jam awal pagi dah ku speedkan semua kerja... selesai...

Kurang pandai berpolitik dalam opis nih! tapi kadang2 bila keadaan mendesak... berpolitik jua...
contohnya... (1) memenuhkan meja dengan kertas2 atau document2 yang tah aper2... , (2) mengadap pc dan menaip ... mcm banyak sangat benda nak dibuat... tapi sebenarnya banyak melayan fb n blog.., (3) berjalan laju2 sambil memegang fail.. seolah2 ada meeting penting yg perlu di hadiri... and banyak lagi...yg orang expert selalu buat... hee hee hee. Year end mmg tak banyak project... so lepak office jer...

Tiba2 rakan kat sebelah ( yg juga sdg main politik office... hee hee hee....), gave me a shocking news...

"Engine jet pejuang TUDM hilang dan dijual dengan harga RM50juta"

Macam tak percaya bila baca news nie.... di mana kawalan keselamatan negara..? kene pulak yang hilang barang milik badan yang mengawas keselamatan negara... biar "betik"!! I can't resist laughing ... thingking that the engine flew by itself.... but at the same time... subahanallah macam manalah benda nie boleh jadi... and yet the thing happed in 2007... who was the minister then ?....

After two years.... this is the statement the same minister gave us.. "No covering up over missing jet engine"... 2 years.... my goodness.. and yet this is what he got to say ?.. or he has no words to explain this things..... or he might have forgotten what had happened during his time as the said minister....

Sebagai rakyat Malaysia yang waras... tak boleh tidak... kita mesti akan bercakap tentang hal ini... tidak kiralah... fahaman politik apakah kita... further more... its RM50M.... saperlah yang joli sakai ngan duit tue...

I had always thought (ever since last week) ... there will be no other big news by our political people other than the smile of newly wed Bung Mokhtar... who gave a statement " sy tak cukup kacak untuk dia"... hee hee hee...

Bak kata seorang kawan....Boleh Negotiate...

mama, atuk, cucu n cubic

"mama siapkan yg atas dulu" ... ahhhh senang jer... I supposed.... yes its quite easy.. less than one minute... " then mama buat first layer"... uhhh!!! senang juga... but still took few minutes to understand which colour goes where... "ok siap" I said... " then mama do the second layer"...... I silent for a while and asked " how to?"... " ok... mula-mula mama turun bawah.. pastu pusing kanan.. then naik balik then turun kiri.. pas tu pusing kiri.... tapi ingat... kalau warna kat sebelah kiri.. kene pusing kanan.." ok.. it sounds easy... tapi berkerut2 dahi berfikir... lepas buat merah.. hijau berterabur... buat hijau .. merah pulak berterabur... " ala tak pandai laaa.... ajar lagi cam ner...." dengan sabar... cikgu muda ini mengajar " ok mula mula.. turun bawah.. then pusing kanan...." I just followed the instruction... tiba tiba.... "mama nie... kanan kiri pun dah tak kenal".... haaa haa haaa.... It makes me laughed to tears... kene marah ngan anak sendiri...
Akhirnya... separuh give up... letak tepi dulu.. esok sambung...

The next day... the number of cikgu added.... sabar sungguh cikgu2 muda nie... atau mungkin cikgu pertama penat mengajar mama dia... hee hee hee... After 2 weeks of short classes, I just managed to complete the second layer... the third layer and the final face... hancur...

Last two days... Cikgu muda dapat murid baru... namanya Atuk... (hee hee hee) which is my father... bersungguh2 atuk mendengar arahan cikgu muda... then atuk kata " that is very easy..." dlm hati I said... "memanglah easy.. cikgu kat sebelah... cuba buat sendiri..." ini adalah pandangan orang2 yang underestimate kebolehan atuk....

Yesterday.. to my suprise... Atuk purchase a note book, which costs him... RM3... he wrote every single instruction form the cikgu muda... and starts practicing... Every petua also he jot down... such an obedient student...

When I step into my parents house yesterdsay... the cikgu2 muda were saying this to me " mama... Atuk is the best student... Atuk tulis semua instruction.. then Atuk practice" I just sengeh and asked my father... " apa status? layer berapa dah? " ini adalah soalan orang yang jeles.. hee hee hee...

Then cikgu2 muda tambah lagi " ajar mama.. susah.... kanan kiri pun dah tak kenal...."

Never came across my mind to do just like my father did... sbb to me... I just want my kids to feel that I appreciate their knowledge and the skill the had... but at the same time... it inspire me... to be part of the cubic master... to complete the whole color... and as for Atuk... masa terluang sekarang... digunakan dengan baik to compelete the cubic...

Today... I didn't send the kids to my parents' house... coz last night.. my parents overnight kat rumah my sis... Tapi pagi2 tadi... my father dah fetch my kids... could be 2 reasons... first he might feel great with the kids around ... makan ramai2 and solat ramai2.... second.... mungkin belum khatam ilmu cubic lagi... haa haa haa...

Semoga atuk berjaya....

Today lunch hour : atuk tgh study.. pergerakan cubic...

P/S... cikgu2 muda ialah Azim n Ammar...

Ketentuan

Tidur petang memang dah tau tak bagus.. tapi tertidur juga... sbb cuaca yang indah...

Rasanya dlm kul 4 dah terlena dibuai mimpi..

Tah macam mana... dalam mimpi petang semalam... hadir seorang kawan lama... seorang kawan lelaki... dari kampung padang merbuk... tempat sy membesar... Datang ke rumah dan berbaring setentang kepala dengan sy... sy memandang keluar rumah melihat anak2 bermain hujan... kawan lama tue namanya Nik Mazlan atau kitorang panggil dia dengan nama Lan Pret... (pret tu nama macik sy bagi tuk diorang adik beradik...) Dia berbaring menghadap suami sy yang sedang berkebun kat tepi rumah....

Bila dia berbaring hampir dengan sy... dan saya hampir merasai kepalanya... sy minta dia jauhkan sikit kedudukannya... tapi dia kata... tak muat, bila sy bangun dan lihat... ya memang tak muat... sbb kakinya terpaksa dibengkokkan pada armrest sofa... Akhirnya saya bangun ... untuk buat air minum petang... sedang sy siap2 kan meja, saya dapati kawan lama saya itu berjalan keluar... saya hanya melihat dia pergi.... dia berjalan terus tanpa menoleh....

Sekejap itu juga saya terjaga... istighfar... kerana baru saya sedar... teman itu telah lama kembali menyahut seruan Illahi... Saya terus panggil suami saya dan ceritakan mimpi saya... pada masa yang sama.. saya terfikir... kenapa secara tiba-tiba... kawan lama saya hadir dalam mimpi saya.... Suami saya kata jam dah pukul 5.30.. maknanya saya dah melewati waktu Asar... bila saya hendak bangun... tiba-tiba... message pada phone saya masuk...

Nombor saya tak tahu milik siapa... sementelahan sim card baru... bila saya buka message ia tertulis .."Dimaklumkan. dgn rasa sedih. nora ICT telah pulang ke rahmatullah jam 430 ptg tadi. alfatihah"... Sy bingung sekejap... nora yang mana? fikir saya... saya ramai kenalan nora... tidur petang ni memang buat kepala mamai sekejap... Saya paksa diri berfikir... nora yang mana... akhirnya baru saya teringat kawan saya di MBSA di bahagian ICT...

Berita ini memang buat saya sangat terkejut kerana... saya baru sahaja di datangi mimpi oleh seorang kawan lama yang dah bertahun2 pergi meninggalkan kami semua...

Alfatihah untuk mereke berdua...

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmah keatas kedua mereka dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yang beriman.

Gloomy Sunday

Malas... malas sungguh rasanya bila cuaca gloomy...
Saat2 cam nie paling seronok merenung pokok2, langit dan persekitaran di luar rumah..

Pagi2 tak tau aper nak buat... nak jemur kain... rebas pulak...
Akhirnya kitorang sekeluarga berjalan ke tasik kat rumah... sarapan mee hoon n cheese sandwich kat pondok tepi tasik... lepak dekat dengan set gym yg MBSA baru buat kat situ... memang nyaman... rasa macam kat Teluk Batik pulak...

Anak2, sambil2 makan sempat p main kat skywalker... then to the spider web... I myself p kat tempat batu-batu urut tapak kaki tue... best giler... nak p kat tempat gym tue tak der semangat langsung... sbb baru sudah makan...

Biasanya kalu nak p joging n guna peralatan gym tue... anak2 tak boleh dibawa bersama... sbb nnt penat menegur.. n menjawab soalan... so masa bawa anak2 layan lah diorang dulu...

Lepak kat tasik sampai kul 11.30 pagi.. then jalan balik.....

Sampai rumah... just kemas2 apa yang boleh dibuat... kejap2 merenung keluar rumah... sedapnya dengan cuaca cam nie... angin lak bertiup lembut... bisa lena dibuatnya...

Memandangkan pagi dah breakfast yang berat maka.. lunch jadi sedikit terlajak kul 3.30 baru semorang nak makan...

Lepas makan.. mulalah mata layu macam cuacanya... ZZZ terus...

Nur Sarah turns 8

Alhamdulillah... my youngest dah masuk 8 tahun... on 5 November hari tue..

Selalunya.. entry b'day anak2 sy buat on the day itself ... to mark the important moments between me and my kids...

Tapi kali ni.. tertangguh.. sebabnya I was do damn busy with my office event on 7 and 8 November, maka bercuti time2 tengah kalut adalah sangat tidak di galakkan.. hee hee hee

Sarah complained to me, why I didn't take any leave to be with her on her b'day... sedangkan bila b'day abang2 n kakak.. I was at home with them...n prepare them things... Adusss... bila sikecik ni mula berkata2... menusuk terus ke hati... terkilan mungkin Sarah with me...

I then cakap ngan Sarah... bukan tak mau cuti tapi tak boleh cuti... sbb kerja terlalu banyak n ada event yg mama tengah handle.. but will try to do something for her the next coming week... (this weekend) ... Sarah diam.. then she noded ... Dlm hati ni... rasa bersalah masih bersarang...

Sangat kebetulan the first week of November penuh dengan hujan sebelah petang... maka bila sampai rumah .. dlm kul 8 - 9mlm.. tapi masih gagahkan diri siapkan kek utk kawan2 sarah kat sekolah... buntu jap nak buat kek deco.. akhirnya buat satu kek bulat kecik n satu kek bulat yg besar... pas tu cantum jadi no 8... hee hee hee... Sarah was so happy with the outcome...

The next day (5th/11) I ada meeting kat office.. then petang ada meeting kat luar.. for the coming event.... have to rush home... hantar Sarah n Syasya with the cake... then rush back office... Sian Sarah... mamanya ini sangat terburu2 mengejar masa...

Then hari Sabtu... after balik dari my function tu... terus bawa anak2 p dinner kat Pak Li Kopitiam... ya lah.. dah berhari2 makan huru hara... sbb mama balik lambat... so hari tue... belanja anak2 yg very understanding...

When we was about to finish the dinner.. then ada satu perempuan Filipino.. datang minta derma.. as a return .. she will sing any song we requested... (agak2 laaa... jgn la suruh nyanyi lagu wings pulak hee hee hee) ... We requested a b'day song for Sarah... best sungguh masa tue... Sarah malu2 but the rest of us were so happy for her... Then Sarah kata.. "best la mama.. b'day baby ada orang nyanyikan... tapi baby malu"... mana taknyer Sarah siap tutup muka masa orang tue nyanyi tuk dia... Sudahnya staff Pak Li yg serve kitorang pun wish Sarah juga... happy giler..

Then on Monday.. I was on leave.. buat lagi satu kek utk Sarah.. for us to celebrate her..

What most important is.... Sarah is happy with whatever kitorang buat utk dia...

Semoga Sarah sentiasa dilindungi Allah, Diberkati hidup... dan mendapat keredhaan di dunia dan di akhirat... mama sayang sangat Sarah..

What most important is that

cekodok cekolat

Fancy sungguh makanan utk anak-anak..

Malam tadi Ammar told me.. he wanted to bring bekal to school tomorrow (today) , asked me to prepare some for him. Penat berfikir.. sbb selalunya b/fast paling senang roti gardenia atau biskut tiger.. Akhirnya I decided to prepare for them "cekodok cekolat"...

Cekodok cekolat ni tiada unsur2 chocolate langsung.. no.. no.. no..

The kids name the cekodok as such sbb warnanya cam chocolate.. Lama berzaman tak buat cekodok nie.. walaupun paling senang... tapi ada satu ingredient nyer yang bila tak der tak leh nak buat...

Ingredient penting tue bukanlah susah sangat nak beli pun... tapi setiap kali pergi kedai.. samada tak ada... ataupun terlupa nak beli... tapi selalunya lupalah.... hee hee hee

Then one day, when i was getting my things from the bakers' shop ternampaklah ingredient penting itu.. terus jer amik.... standby... just in case.....

So pagi tadi ... since ingredients penting tue ader... maka menyiapkan cekodok cekolat utk anak2 buakanlah satu masalah besar lagi... sambil2 siapkan makan utk lunch anak2... siaplah cekodok cekolat itu...

Disebabkan dah lama tak buat cekodok... maka batter tu agak tercair sedikit so terpaksa lah tambah tepung... sudahnya.. ha ha.. berlambak cekodok cekolat tue jadinyer... First batch yang digoreng.. terus Ammar n Azim bungkus.. bawa bekal.. (bawa bekal sbbnya kerana nak save duit belanja.. sbb nak p kolam pancing udang galah yang baru buka kat belakang rumah kitorang) ... some my hubby pack .. dia pun nak bawa bekal... ( he he) , the rest tinggal kat rumah for Syasya n Sarah.. sure suka giler the two girls bila bangun nnt.

Nak buat cekodok cekolat mudah jer...
Tepung gandum + telur sebiji + gula pasir + air + sedikit garam + most important ingredient... GULA MERAH... make sure yg jenis dlm pack hijau sbb x der pasir.. hee hee..

Calamansi

Mendengar calamansi with ganache yang disediakan sebagai bahan untuk mooncake sempena dengan mooncake festival yang lalu, membuatkan diri ini terliur seketika...

Ganache itu sy tahu... tapi calamansi tak pernah pula dengar... Disebabkan kadar keinginan untuk tahu itu amat tinggi... maka sy terus google kat website.... emmm..... katanya buah calamansi ni banyak tumbuh di Filipina.... rasanya masam cam buah oren... disebabkan gambarnya tak berapa jelas... maka semakin blurlah pengetahuan ini... setelah beberapa hari... keinginan untuk tahu itu padam dengan sendirinya....

Beberapa hari yang lepas... sy pergi ke Jusco Kelang... sebabnya nak p makan malam n at the same time nak puchase carrot utk buat carrot cake for deepavali nyer order.... sambil jalan kat area ikan2 hidup dalam aquarium tue ( lama sungguh tak masuk jusco kelang nih) my kids seperti biasa... terus jer..." mama nak ni boleh?" siap dah pegang dah... then sy geleng kepala... memahami maksud mamanya ini... anak2 biasanya akan letak balik.... tapi permintaan akan berterusan kepada barang2 lain, untill I nod my head....

Then one of them kata " mama nak apple juice!"... kat price tag tu tulis promotion.. buy one free one.. at RM3.99.... hee hee hee .... why not... but yang free tue bukan apple juice juga tapi... CALAMANSI JUICE.... wuhu! akhirnya aku jumpa juga si calamansi nih....

Dah beberapa hari cam tue... barulah teringat ada juice yang purchase hari tue... (teruk betul..) Apple juice memang dah lama selesai... tapi calamansi nie... anak2 tak berani nak minum... sementelahan tak pernah dengar namanya....

Bila buka n bagi anak2 minum n rasa dulu... reaction diorang ialah... masam sangat... Bila sendiri minum.... "emmmm macam pernah ku rasa air ini tapi di mana ya?" sehinggalah habis sebotol juice tu... barulah teringat nak membaca label nyer....

Ya Allah.... calamansi tu LIMAU KASTURI... sebenarnya... tak payah dapat kat Filipina... kat tepi rumah ni jer dah berlambak... my hubby tanam.... haa haa haa.... punyalah lemah vocab part2 cam nie... anyhow.. akhirnya saya tahu juga apa itu calamansi.....

Setiap kali memandang keluar dari tingkap dapur... pasti akan terpandang pokok calamansi itu... dan setiap kali itu... hati ini akan gelak sendiri...

101

Ini adalah entry yang ke 101.. .wu! hu!...

Pemikiran ini sejak minggu lalu sangat padat... sepadat masa yang perlu dipenuhi dengan urusan peperiksaan anak, ramadhan and persiapan raya... Alhamdulillah semuanya selamat ditempuhi.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua yang mengenali diri.. dan membaca blog ini...
Mohon maaf kiranya sepanjang penceritaan dalam blog ini tidak menggembirakan hati pembaca.. Sudilah kiranya menerima perbezaan pendapat ini sebagai satu ilmu yang boleh dikongsi bersama.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA..... MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

(Saat ni dah terasa macam nak demam lah pulak... balik nak p clinic dulu.. nak raya nie banyak benda kene rasa.. hee hee hee)

UPSR

The date is just around the corner... bila sebut jer perkataan tu... meremang sat bulu roma... macamlah sendiri yang nak sit for the exam... well what to do... my son Azim is part of me.. so apa yang dia rasa...mungkin sy juga rasa...

Semalam 3/9/2009 ada majlis Solat Hajat, Bacaan Yasin dan Terawih, organized by the school. Tujuannya adalah untuk mendapat keberkatan.. disamping sumbangan berbentuk spiritual kepada anak2... If I were one of the children I would sure feel happy ... sbb ramai ibu bapa yang datang untuk bersama2 solat hajat berjemaah bagi anak2 tahun 6 yang nak sit for the exam.

A day before, Azim hulur me a borang... tanya mama hadir atau tidak... my jawapan of course yes...(anything good for my children) Asked him to fill in the form... mama sign jer... He even informed me if possible ...(if possible yaaaa...) I could prepare something for the event... he then suggested Bee Hoon...

To be frank... masak mmg tak der problem... cuma masa jer masalah... biasanya dlm keadaan biasa... habis masak ngam2 time nak berbuka... so pikir balik.... " Abang, mama boleh buat.. tapi takut tak sempat... if tak sempat mama pergi lepas buka... nnt mama bawa bee hoon tu okay?" mengharapkan my son faham dgn situasi mak nyer yang serba huru hara ni... " if mama boleh cepat.. mama buka ngan abang kat sana..." bila tengok Azim x der jawapan... Alhamdulillah he nod and smile... " abangkan tau... mama balik nak amik papa lagi... takut jam... so tak mau janji dulu... tp mama akan tetap sampai" promised him.

So yesterday... lepas fetch my hubby kat bukit tinggi kelang terus speed home. Around 6.30pm dah cam tue dah sampai kat kedai area my house... nasib baik parking dapat depan kedai.. (he he) terus purchase barang utk masak mee utk majlis sekolah Azim malam nnt. 10 minutes settled... (termasuk Q utk bayar). Sblm tu dah minta azim kupas bawang , cili kering and other required items for the bee hoon.

Sampai jer rumah... Azim dah siapkan... so I terus bersilat kat dapur... (masa ni bila ramai sgt nak tolong mak dia jadi blur sat...) Minta my hubby hantarkan Azim dulu... Syasya n sarah prepare air tuk bawa bekal... (takut kat sana nnt bila dah ramai berebut air). Ammar tolong potong fishball n fishcake... Masa tgh masukkan bee hoon dlm bekas... Azan dah berkumandang... Ya Allah... tentu Azim tunggu.

So the best solution ialah, bagi yang kat rumah makan dulu... pas tu amik wudhu' then chow to the school.... Nasib baik syasya n sarah dah prepare air... so dapatlah berbuka ngan cepat.... Semua dah siap... my hubby pula baru nak mandi... aduhhhh... punyalah lama balik pun x mandi lagi... Sudahnya... tinggal... x dapek den nak tunggu...

Majlis mmg menarik.. selepas solat maghrib... ada solat hajat... then baca yasin... terus solat isyak dan terawih... semua untuk kebaikan semua...

The school is really putting the effort for the kids... bermula dari awal tahun dengan bacaan yasin setiap jumaat pagi secara konsisten... dan disusuli dengan majlis seumpama ini. Then hari ini... mereka ada majlis restu ilmu ( part ni sayu sikit rasa hati) semua guru2 dari tahun 1 hingga 6 akan hadir di sekolah... dan semua murid tahun 6 perlu berjumpa dengan semua guru2 bagi memohon ampun dan maaf dan minta restu ilmu yang diberi sepanjang mereka bersekolah di sana... (ni yg buat leleh air mata nih...sbb wa mmg sayang cikgu). Then monday masa cuti Nuzul Quran, sekolah akan buat final class tambahan ... more on beri semangat mungkin... sebelum hari mereka sit for the exam hari selasa nnt.

Pagi tadi.. I informed Azim, about the majlis restu... "janganlah abang nangis beria2 pulak kat sana masa salam cikgu... "...then lawak dengan dia " cikguuuuuuu sy minta maaf cikguuuuu" (knowing him could burst to tears) both Azim n Ammar gelak jer... Ammar lagi lahhh... terkekek2... sbb gelakkan orang...

To all the teachers... nothing could replace your time, your effort, your love and everything that you have put in to ensure... all the pupils excell in their exam. Thanks a lot. May all your journey blessed.

Rushing

Had a meeting late yesterday. Kept on looking at my handphone.. not waiting for any calls neither do smses, but instead I'm more concern about the time. The digital time keep on moving.. adding up my worries... "urgghhhh what time can I reach home ? " questioned myself. "Can I get there on time?" again... the questions.. keep on pocking my head.....

The discussion still on... too many things need to be soughted out... we are running out of time.. can't wait to the very last minute... My goodness, my kids and my work... I love both... but right now I'm more worry about my kids... Could already imagine the congestion on the road by this hour.... and I'm in the middle of one of the most bussiest area in Selangor.

My day dream was interupted by more questions on the event we are planning.... STOP! I told myself... you are needed here.. hopefully it can be settled sooner... I pray the members in the meeting room could consider my situation.....

The kids are expecting me to be home early... so that the meal for buka puasa can be prepared.... yes! it is fasting month... everyone is rushing home... so do I.

If only I was told earlier on the meeting schedule, I could have had arrange someone to look after all my 4 fasting childrens, and I could arrange my hubby to drive on that day... but now the car is with me... Understanding the traffic flow and the time I will have to waste on the road.... I then called my mom, seeking for her help to assist me on my kids matter... as for my hubby... I knew, I couldn't make it on time.. advised him to arrange his own buka puasa at his office area... clear air....

Very fortunate for me... my boss was speeding to the office... just to make sure we could reach office early... and I can avoid the traffic problem just right infront of our office....

Reaching office... to find that all the malay staff already went home about an hour ago... left me taking all my stuff... start the engine and zoooommmm....

I decided to get home first before my hubby's office... need to perform my Asar... it is already 6.45pm.. Called my hubby and told him bout my thought... well not a good respond... I knew he prefered to buka puasa at home instead of mamak stall... but I still didn't perform my Asar yet.... since I'm quite near to the house... I told my hubby that I'll will make it quick.

When I reached home... my kids were still there.. waiting for the Atuk to fetch them to buka puasa at my parents house... ( glad my parents are very supportive during this needy times) I will soon join them.. after fetching my hubby...

The time shows 7pm... told the kids to wait inside the compound area... I need to rush for my hubby. Urgghhh forgotten to bring my drink, knew that will have to buka puasa in the car... doesn't matter... sure my hubby will buy for both of us...

Speed the wheels... 20 minutes to my hubby's place...

Just right on time... The Azan aired...

Luckily that afternoon my colleague gave me some crisp chocolate... (meant for my kids) I took 2 to break my fast... my hubby? have all the chocolate drink he bought by himself... (sabar jerlah...) me ? telan air liur + chocolate = choc drink juga... hee hee hee.

10 minutes before 8 I reached my parents house... they were just settled their buka puasa... took a glass of warm nescaffe ( my hubby's fav - purposely prepared by my mom), then quickly settle my maghrib....

Peace of mind.... finally I can breath steadily after rushing more than 3 hours... Sat on the chair and have my mom's cooking for buka puasa... Alhamdulillah...

Kerana masa itu.....

Ahaks... tak lah berat sangat persoalan ni sebenarnya, cuma keupayaan masa untuk memasukkan gambar2 penting dalam blog nie, tue ajer...

Few months back I buat cuppies for a friend yg celebrate anniversary yang pertama..
Red & White theme associate with Man U Team

This one ialah cup cakes, as a gift to my friends during the SMPW senior junior reunion on 8/8 lepas ( Choc Cake & Butter Cake w Raisins)

Ini pula ialah cake special for ingatan juga dibuat during the reunion

kelebihan

Berbeza-beza kita manusia ini di muka bumi Allah.

Secara fizikalnya ada yang tinggi, rendah, gempal, gemuk, kurus, ramping.... muka bulat, lonjong, bujur sireh, empat segi... kulit cerah, gelap, kusam, kuning langsat, kemerah-merahan... and banyak lagilah....

Bagaimana pula dengan kelebihan yang kita ada. Kelebihan ini to me haruslah dikongsi, kerana tidak semua orang mempunyai kelebihan yang sama. Mana mungkin. Mungkin juga.

As for me... I pushed myself untuk memiliki kelebihan itu. Halangan hanyalah sekadar halangan, itu bukan penutup jalan. Yang menutup jalan itu adalah diri sendiri juga...yang dah give up.

Ada orang sangat pandai menguasai bahasa... macam-macam bahasa buleh... tengok ajer Mahathir Lokman... sangat envy dengan kemahiran dia. Ada juga my friend yang mahir berbahasa arab... (envy juga lagi)... bila dia borak ngan ahli keluarga dia... dia cakap arab.... best dengar... sampai tercengang pun ader... kengkadang... sengeh sensorang... sebab sangat suka dengan kelebihan orang lain.

My cousin, sekolah cina... bila dia cakap mandrin kita jadi cam terkebelakang sangat dalam pengetahuan.... (envy lagi), my mom sendiri... cakap tamil... dah macam bahasa ibunda dah untuk dia... ( envy juga laaaa), Me? setakat bahasa malaysia dan English... itu jer ader.... but for some people... My ability to converse in english buat diorang envy pula to me.... itu semua kelebihan masing-masing....

Berjumpa dengan seseorang yang sangat pandai bertukang.... semua kabinet kat rumah bikin sendiri, ukir perabut rumah bagi cantik... ketam kayu bagi kemas kerja2 diorang. Tukang paip yang charge me up to RM300 untuk pasang my filter (sekali kerja jer tuh...), juga kerja dengan kemas dan bersih. Electrician, buat wiring kat my house... lepas my house p rumah orang lain pulak... bila tanya... their earning sehari boleh cecah RM1,000. (perghhh banyak tuh..) untuk kerja sehari suntuk... terutamanya bila ada kawasan rumah baru atau nak dekat raya cam nih. Tukang potong rumput, yang selain potong rumput kat my house untuk sejam dengan bayaran RM20-30 sekali potong... untuk hari minggu cam tu pun boleh dapat kat beratus juga... on top of kontrak potong rumput tepi jalan.

Orang yang sangat pandai membaiki computer, otak genius. Sangat teliti dan sangat kemas... sebab to me orang cam ni... memang hebat sbb... nak pastikan computer itu pulih seperti sediakala... (cam doctor juga lah), kerana computer ni nowdays dah macam bawak ic, kehulu kehiilir .... penting sungguh document yang ader... kalu pc / laptop kong.... kan ker susah....

Ramai orang melihat kelebihan orang lain tanpa mampu melihat kelebihan diri sendiri.... to me orang cam ni... sangat merendah diri... tapi tak boleh terlalu merendah diri.... nanti orang lain amik kesempatan....

Ramai lagi orang hanya melihat kelebihan diri sendiri tanpa mampu melihat kelebihan orang lain... to me... rugi sungguh orang ini... kerana tak berkeupayaan untuk share... because diorang rasa diorang jer yang baik... so susahlah nak share....

Ada juga orang... tak tau apa itu kelebihan. Susah juga ngan orang cam ni. Jalan straight jer....

Apapun kelebihan dan kemahiran boleh di pelajari dan di usahakan.
Yang sukar adalah sifat dan sikap melihat kelebihan itu untuk kebaikan diri dan kebaikan orang lain... kerana... sikap mencerminkan sifat... dan sifat itu mencerminkan diri... dan diri itu adalah kita.

Jadi mulalah melihat kelebihan ini dari sudut yang positif, haruslah manipulate kemahiran diri ini supaya memberi kebaikan kepada hidup kita dan juga orang lain...

Kita saling memerlukan. Tak perlu segan dengan kekurangan... sebab setiap orang juga ada kekurangannya.

Melayukah aku?

Tidak aku tidak melayu.... aku tak mahu melayu...

Pernah seorang driver taxi bertanya " anak ni ada campur india ker?" aku kata "ya.... arwah datuk saya sebelah mak" . Agak bangga sebenarnya sebab mempunyai darah campuran. My grandma (ibu my mom), arwah bapanya nya dari keturunan Perancis, manakala ibunya dari keturunan Siam. My father lak... memang pure indon, (hee hee hee) My late grandma (sebelah ayah) memang dari Sulawesi Indonesia, as for my late grandpa pulak dari keturunan Daing dari sebelah perak ( dari lima bersaudara itu juga dari indon).

Seronok kerana tahu susur galur keluarga sendiri. So do I pure malay? If dikatakan dari susur galur rumpun melayu... then I am.

If meilhat kepada rupa ahli keluarga my mom, memang ada rupa2 pakistan jual carpet, mamak kedai kopi, ane roti canai, Rishi Kapoor... Anil Kapoor ... semua aderlahhh (hee hee hee) As for the ladies , a very fair skin... contras skin, hidung kembang...hidung mancung cucuk langit pun ader. One thing for sure... mata kami orang semua chantekkk (wu hu!). Nnt ada masa I will post some of my family photos.

Baru-baru ini, my friend tanya " awak ni ada campur keturuan india ker?" then I said "yes sebelah my mom, from penang".... then my friend kata " ohhh patutla rupa abang awak dan adik awak cam ada campur jer.... tengok la badan diorang pun" (cheh! mcm nak kata aku jer...hee hee hee). Yes, its true... I knew where I came from.

Some malays are very sensitive about this malay matters. It is not I don't care... I do... but I just don't even know how to group myself to pure malays. Memang my IC written "MELAYU" , I admit... sebab takkan nak tulis.. Bugis, India, Perancis, Siam pulak kat dalam tu kan?...... Harus lebih banyak membuat kajian tentang how myself jatuh kategori Melayu, ingatkan dah banyak belajar sejarah tanah melayu dah tahu... tapi masih banyak ilmu yang perlu di cari...... (kurang ilmu lagi nih).... ini satu challenge for myself..... GO FOR IT DAING

Harus sentiasa berfikiran positif, membangkitkan semangat diri... semangat juang yang tinggi... agar harus terus berdiri dan berdikari, berjiwa kental dan berdedikasi KERANA ITULAH AKU MENGAKU AKU TIDAK ME"LAYU" DAN TIDAK MAHU ME"LAYU"... AKU INGIN SENTIASA KEHADAPAN.. DAN TERUS BERJUANG....

Ramadhan Al Mubarak

Tinggal kurang dari tiga hari sebelum kita semua bertemu Ramadhan semula.

Some of us tak sempat untuk menikmati Ramadhan kali ini... some of us mungkin sempat... ~ mungkin sebab Ramdhan ada beberapa ribu saat lagi... dalam saat-saat itu apa pun mungkin boleh terjadi. InsyaAllah dengan izinNya semoga kita semua dapat menikmati bulan yang indah ini.

Bulan Ramadhan memang bulan yang sangat dinantikan oleh my kids. Sangat teruja dengan kehadiran Ramadhan, dah siap plan nak buat aper bulan tu nanti. My kids juga sangat menantikan kehadiran my grandma, InsyaAllah jika ada rezeki my grandma akan berpuasa di rumah kami... seperti beberapa tahun yang dulu. Why is it so important for us to have my grandma at home.... sebabnya... perasaan Ramadhan itu sangat terasa, lagi pula... my grandma sangat rajin mengaji... setiap masa. As for me... beramadhan dengan my grandma adalah antara perkara terindah berlaku dalam hidup.

My grandma juga melayan my kids dengan upah 50sen sehari jika puasa cukup and of course my grandma siap tempah bunga api for the kids.... (tu la sebabnyer kot... heiii budak-budak nihhh).

Jarang membeli belah di bazaar Ramadhan... paling tinggi pun beli murtabak... selain itu , masak kat rumah. Beberapa tahun dulu... selalu juga ke bazaar Ramadhan, tapi end up, makanan tak sedap atau rosak. Akhirnya anak2 sendiri buat pilihan tahun ini, not to buy anything from the bazaar kecuali murtabak, sepertimana tahun lepas.

Last year, first Terawih kat Masjid Negeri Shah Alam ( situlah ammar bought me anak tudung... sampai sekarang masih pakai lagi) , this year mungkin aktiviti yang sama. Lagipun dah cuti sekolah dah masa tue, so tak yah nak risau... tentang waktu tido anak2.

Menjelang malam Lailatul Qadar, anak2 selalunya will ask me to tell them the important things that would happened that night. So every year akan citer... if my grandma ada masa tue... my grandma akan ceritakan. The kids juga akan be very happy dengan lampu-lampu minyak tanah yang dipasang sekeliling rumah... bermain dengan anak2 jiran... cuma kali ni Aisyah tak der... sure the kids will miss her...

Sangat suka dengan kedatangan Ramadhan, melihatkan anak2 yang sangat teruja dengan amalan berpuasa. Bersungguh2 menikmati hindangan berbuka, dengan bacaan doa berbuka dan doa makan. Tahun ini... Syasya dan Sarah harus diberi perhatian yang serius... as for Azim dan Ammar, insyaAllah...harap2 seperti tahun2 yang dulu... dapat mendidik diri sendiri untuk kuatkan iman dan semangat untuk terus berpuasa penuh.

Bulan Ramadhan juga bulan yang terbaik untuk mohon ampun dan maaf dari sesiapa pun. Banyak betul pahalanya jika dilakukan dalam bulan ini. Kerana setiap perbuatan yang baik ganjarannya berlipat kali ganda.

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan kepada semua.
Mohon Ampun dan Maaf jika, any of my posting tidak disenangi.

Selamat berpuasa

Penat tapi Puas

Agak kerap terjaga sekitar jam 4.30 pagi sejak 3 bulan yang lalu... bila dipaksa-paksa mata ni lelap susah pulak... macam dah bersedia benar untuk memulakan hari seawal 4.30 tuh...

Sehingga sekarang.. sistem kepala dan tubuh badan nih dah benar2 sebati dengan waktu tue... bila difikirkan balik.. ada baiknya juga.... kali ni kita menunggu subuh... dari subuh memanggil kita.....

Lately... waktu sebegini dimanafaatkan dengan buat sample kuih raya. Sebenarnya bila balik kerja agak penat otak dan badan ni... lagi pulak habis jer kerja kene p fetch my hubby yang sentiasa berpindah randah pejabatnya... kali ni station kat Bukit Tinggi Klang for 2 weeks... before balik semula ke Pandamaran.... Sian tengok my hubby punya keadaan kerja... tapi rasanya sian lagi kat diri sendiri... sebab...every time dia pindah office... maka setiap waktu itulah gue ini terpaksa adjust masa untuk hantar and jemput dia balik keje. Biasanya perjalanan untuk seluruh hari itu (hanya utk hubby jer) dah kat 3 jam atas jalan raya....Tidak termasuk... hantar anak2 sekolah waktu petang...

Disebabkan terlalu petat pada waktu balik keje... maka makan malam juga agak ala kadar sahaja... ada protein.. ada vege dah okay dah.... by 11 mata dah nak terkatup dah....

4.30am sekarang ni telah dimanafaatkan dengan kuih raya, cuppies, kemas dapur, gosok baju, siapkan sarapan anak2 and siapkan lunch anak2. then mandi and solat. Pas monitor anak2 naik bas... if bas terlepas... maka... mamanya ini haruslah menghantarnya pula...............

Semalam adalah masa tido paling pendek bagi bulan nih... balik dari office dah jam 7, terus p tesco... beli barang sikit.... then terus p rumah mak... for maghrib and sbb nak amik milk and few items that I bought during lunch hour kat Mydin ngan my parents & my sis yg half day tu. By the time I reached home, Azim dah p tuisyen jalan kaki... (sian anak mama - sblm ni dah beberapa kali teman kan Azim jalan kaki... 3 min jer... so x risau sangat dah). Kat rumah Ammar, Syasya and Sarah jer yang tinggal.

Masing2 dah makan, lauk kari ikan yg I masak for lunch tadi. Lepas the kids help me with the items I bought from Mydin and Tesco tue... I terus prepare 50pcs cuppies for my friend, friday morning nak amik. By 11, my cuppies siap... pas tu, me & my kids berempat terus siap p rumah my mom... semua kids opt to follow me... I told my hubby I might overnight kat rumah mak sbb lepas tolong mak masak for her event on Friday jugak... I mungkin dah tak larat nak drive home... so by 4 or 5am the next day I akan balik rumah.

Off the five of us went to my parents house... (approx 15-20min drive), left my hubby alone at home till 5am. Sampai jer rumah mak... terus p dapur... mak dah mula masak... and I just tolong apa yang patut... and of course, ayam masak merah yang my mom minta I prepare for her function. So masaklah kitorang berdua... dengan ayah dan my kids.. yang kuar masuk dapur... cari2 kot2 ada benda yang boleh munch.

By 1am the ayam dah siap... my mata dah layu giler... cakap ngan mak... I need to rest sbb esok I need to cook for my event lak... My kids? layan tv ngan atuk dia.... Exactly 3.50am I dah terjaga... then tengok jam... urgghhhh awal lagi... tengok anak2 dah macam udang tidurnya... kesejukan kat hall rumah mak tu.... I bangun and selimutkan anak2 then tutup aircond... just let the kipas terus pusing. Baring balik... sbb badan penat... tapi pala tak mau rest dah... then by 4.30am kejutkan anak2 masuk kereta... and by 4.45am chow balik rumah.

Sampai jer rumah... anak2 sambung tido... Myself terus p dapur.. kemas2 sikit... and start to prepare my portion for my office pot luck and of course... my kids nyer b/fast and lunch. Tengah2 prepare tu.. tetiba my phone ada message masuk... bila tengok jer... my big boss sudah hantar message... "meeting at 8.30am today, regarding....." masa tu... adusssssss meeting la pulak... time2 cam ni....

By 8am I left for my office... barang2 semua dah di masukkan dalam kete. P rumah mak dulu, sbb my friend yang nak ambik cuppies tu ada order few malay kuih from my mom's neighbour. From there... my father yang hantar p office... my hubby terus p keje...

By 8.45am meeting baru start, pala gue ini tengah dok pikir nak p amik nasi dagang and satay by 9.30am sbb one of the manager yang patut amik tu ... x leh nak amik sbb kitorang semua dalam bilik meeting.... by 9.15am I kuar sat ajak kawan kat office... p amik barang2 tue...
by 10.15am semua barang dah amik...

Nasib baik before I left the office, I dah minta one of the staff to help me on the buffet line arrangement... so by the time I reached office... semua barang dah tersusun kat area foyer office... and I just call few guy yang tengah minggle kat buffet area tuh... amik the nasi dagang n satay from the bonnet .... Just the right time, semua sampai bila food dah ready semua...

Semua makan sampai puas... muka masing2 sangat happy... sbb plenty of foods... Myself ? penat giler... sampai tak larat nak makan...

Tapi best sebab semua happy.

When The Parrot Starts Talking

Not a good sign.

When the parrot starts talking.
It will repeat every single word you say.
and it will also repeat every single word other people say.

This parrot doesn't have any heart feelings. Just say what ever they've been trained to say, and they used to said.

It is quite annoying when you have this parrot around you. It will make you forced to listen the the same thing again, and again, as if we don't have the ability to understand. I pity this parrot, it is beauty without brain.... talking nonsense, never feel other peoples feeling when it says something...the word just came out from the mouth... just like that. Well else can we say, that parrot is not a human.

But what if a human being behave like a parrot ?, I would pity them more...
The worst part when you have your colleague behave like a parrot, trying to explain to you what ever your other colleagues told both of you... and you'll be like.... "ehemmmm.... okay.... okay.... " and your eyes started to look at the other friend with thousands expressions.

Heyy... this parrot is sincere, they never hide a thing, because whatever they knew they threw it away.... and what left with them? ZERO, because they never think before act. One thing for sure... some of the words may left scars to other people. Do they ever care ? NO..

Because they are just parrot

Menunggu Bulan Jatuh Ke Riba

Banyak sebenyarnya keinginan kita dalam hidup ni... macam macam kita nak. Keinginan ini sentiasa berubah-ubah mengikut keadaan semasa dan kemampuan kita.

Ada banyak keingin yang boleh dimiliki hanya dengan berusaha and of course di izinkan Allah. Ada keinginan kita datang sendiri, bagai di sua-sua pada kita... and kita pulak apa lagi... capai ajer ahhh..... Ada keinginan yang sangat lama untuk dikecapi... yang ni memang menuntut banyak kesabaran. Ada juga keinginan yang tak mungkin tergapai... bagai menunggu bulan jatuh keriba...

Keinginan yang ini memang tidak boleh dirancang, kerana mana mungkin bulan boleh jatuh keriba. Hanya jia kita pejam mata... and fikir bulan tu sampai kat riba... barulah jadik.... tapi hakikatnya... bulan tu masih nun jauh di sana.

Keinginan banyak berkitar tentang persoalan hati dan perasaan. Ada ketikanya bila keinginan kita tidak dapat dipenuhi, perasaan kita akan memberontak, marah, bengang... and bingung... (Tapi kan bulan tu tak bisa jatuh ke riba kannn?.... )

Ada keinginan kita, yang mampu kita tolak ajer ke tepi... (len kali laaaa...) boleh kita tangguh sebab tidak ada urgency nyer... Tapi ada juga keinginan yang memang tak boleh... tapi dipaksa perasaan dan hati bagi kata boleh....( cam ner tuh?)

Bila keinginan itu melibatkan ilmu dan pelajaran... keinginan itu harus di pupuk dan diusahakan. Bagi jadik. Cepat atau lambat itu persoalan kedua, yang penting jadik.

Sejauh mana kita boleh bersabar bila melibatkan keinginan ini. Istighfar banyak-banyak. Perasaan teringin itu akan reda. Bila perasaan teringin tu datang balik... istighfar lagi.... InsyaAllah perasaan teringin itu akan reda dengan sendiri.

Tapi awas... dong... kita ni kan manusia yang banyak pemikiran dan cita-cita.. jadi... keinginan lain akan datang menggantikan keinginan yang telah reda tadi...

Apa pun pokok persoalannya. Keinginan untuk menanti bulan jatuh keriba adalah keinginan yang sia-sia.

Azim's Dream

Just left another few weeks before my eldest son Abdul Azim sits for his UPSR. What is that exam for some of us, baru first exam... he has to go for few series of exam before he can declare himself free from books. It matters to me.

Recently Azim informed about boarding school... in Johore and Sarawak... (jauhnyer....) That school, according to him offered to the students who are interested in arts.. which means.. only students with good co-co vitae are fit to comes in. I knew Azim has such interest. He has a strong martial arts activity.. he represents the school, and he has all I love to do during my school days... kebudayaan activities... that includes singing. Guessed what, he even wrote me a song.... best kan?

He had been asking me about the interest since the school advertise it to the students. Previously he was not keen to go to any boarding school ( mama pun tak sanggup sebenarnya), but lately Azim memang sangat berhasrat.

I told him... if he really wants it... I will allow... but I will for sure.. nangis giler... (weiii anak gue tuhhh.....) but never worry because my nangis will only be for 1 week. I even told him ... that he might be crying too... because he may misses me and the rest of the family... (mcm tak mau bagi jer... hee hee hee)

Anyhow, deep inside me... I'm proud of him, he knew where is he heading to... what he wants to persue with...

To Azim, mama love u so much. you are such a great son... and a great friend to me. Really hope that Allah will blessed you with barakah, and shines your journey.

Just bring me the form. let me fill it up for you.. hope you'll be accepted.

H1N1

The kids kat rumah today, their school declared cuti from today untill 19th August.

I feel save if the kids at home. For the past 2 weeks.. demam anak2 silih berganti.. starting from Ammar.. (mc 3 hari) then Azim (mc 4 hari) then syasya (mc 4 hari) then sarah... batuk ngada2... but she complained sakit kat perut... and kerap lapar... walaupun baru sudah makan. Biasanya itu tanda2 gastrik... so me & my hubby.. p cari milk for her... ration for 1 week.

Alhamdulillah, the kids condition okay... but pity Azim.. his real trial exam terlepas 1 hari. Itupun the fourth day ... Azim dah tak sabar nak p sekolah, walaupun masih ada baki cutii dari doc lagi . ( Kalu kita... mc harus di habiskan... hee hee hee)

The Section 7 School, memang ada kes pelajar positif H1N1, according to Syasya... budak darjah 1B dah positif. Then when I got the letter from school yesterday ( Sarah gave it to me) it was written that the school is still monitoring the progress, by reporting the number of students being absent from school. I didn't see any instruction saying, the school will be on cuti .... instead only stated their action for this worrying matters.

Then how do I confirmed the school off today? hee hee hee...

Just happened to be... my neighbour is one of the teacher kat sekolah my kids... so dekat maghrib semalam...( I still tak sampai rumah lagi... sian anak2) she informed Azim.. that the school cuti ... tu laaa sebab boleh tau....

What worries me more ialah... UPSR Azim, Exam will be on 8/9 ( dah dekat tuh... mama dah ketaq pala lutut ) , skng cuti seminggu, pas tu sekolah on 20 & 21 then cuti sekolah pulak.... lagi seminggu... takut his semangat nak exam dia melompat2 turun.... What to do... the kids nyer health is much more important.

Note :-
Bengang sungguh bila tau ada orang yang dapat mc... dan patut quarantine diri sendiri kat rumah... boleh pegi shopping... tengok konsert... and be kat area public... cam nerrr lahhh nak curb the matter... Malaysian.... Malaysian

life is like this

The path we choose in our life, we wouldn't know what's coming up... or rather waiting for us. For that particular time, we thought that was the great move we took. Yes, indeed. For that particular time.

I choose to marry a guy I hardly knew. Met & date him just 3 weeks before he proposed me. That was one of the greatest move I had ever made.

Things happened in our life, but how we take it... it depends on how we want it to be.

Just came to know about a friend. Long lost friend. Didn't have the life she wanted it to be. The way she dreamt about. She considered her marriage life a failure... twice... and she had already stop thinking about greatest thing she went thru with us(the friends), and another greatest things waiting for her.

I felt so sad, not because of what she faced thru with both marriage... but on how she takes it.

When I met my other friends during our school gathering, the atmosphere was of course different from the one we had when we were in school. Those day.. it was more like... senior junoir things... but on that day... it was us... the people form the same school. We do not know who are the seniors and what more... the juniors.

Amongst us... some are married with numbers of kids, some are just married, some are married but still didn't have the chance to have any kids yet, some are pregnant, some are divorcee, some are with the new hubby, some are without (still looking I guessed) even some are still confused. There are friends who are employees (like me), employer, doing own business and even doing MLM. Some of us are with the perfect figures, out of figures, no figures (hee hee hee). Some are with coloured hair, with the scarff, "durians" hair, Botox, poyo, etc.....

We came from the same school. Studied in the same class. Being thought by the same teacher... and yet we still can see the big difference when we met them... WHY....

BECAUSE LIFE IS LIKE THIS

Things changed in our life. Because we change them. We want it to be that way.
To those who think that their life are difficult. Look on the positive side. We have to go thru this life... and change them the way we want it. Let the past support todays strength.

Again

Alhamdulillah,

My event in genting runs successfully
They look at me with thumbs up.
Badan memang penat giler... tapi hati sangat gembira.
Rata-rata customers happy dengan penganjuran kali ini...
The show itself memang happening..
Though 95% in mandrin... tapi wa tarak kisah.. dah 5 years ngan diorang nih...
And they gave me a very good commitment.. sebab tue event berjalan ngan lancar

Tentu event tak 100% seperti dirancangkan, pincang sikit2 boleh cover lagi...
By the time kitorang berkumpul tuk amik gambar... I was so tired... tremendously tired
I heard the staff went for karaoke, I dak tak larat giler... need to be on my bed at that moment.
lagi pun bulan dah hampir time... so penat dia lain macam arrr

That was week ago...

Today

I'm in Malacca, another event, need to set up booth for 4x4 jamboree...
event habis tomorrow somewhere around 4pm... then pack up, baru leh balik
rasanya sampai shah alam dlm kul 6.30pm cam tue.

Monday tak tau lagi nak cuti atau tidak... mungkin p keje... will take my replacement leave some other day.

Just love doing what i'm currently doing... tapi kesian kat anak2 kene tinggal. nasib baik my boys dah tahu nak gosok baju sendiri... so papa dia tak terlalu banyak kerja.. even the girls juga dah pandai gosok baju... tapi kene monitor...

I have such a wonderful kids.

The Reason to Succeed

Every human beings have their own goals. From young till our last breath we dream of getting something. The needs keep on changing ... and we keep on demanding for something. Nothing wrong with it... somehow it helps us to keep on going in this life.

I achieved what I want... because I want it to be that way... of course sometimes.. though I tried very hard... it seems that my target is running away from me..... could it be because of my way of getting it... or that thing is just not for me... ... never give up...

I love working... I love doing things... I love to take care all my kids.. I love to be at home with them... I love to cook... I love to become a carrier woman ... love to do what I'm doing right now... urgggghhhh so much things I want in my life... Sometimes it was like struggling to catch every single things..

The ladder is very high... keep on climbing... but still need to look down ... to the people I left behind.

The reason I put the title was actually because of the communication I had with Azim.. few days ago...

He told me " mama... my teacher said this today... kalau seseorang pelajar itu hendak berjaya... dia haruslah... 1. ada keluarga yang penyayang... contohnya ibu bapa yang baik dan bukan bercerai... 2. makanan yang bagus.... 3. bantuan belajar yang baik 4. tidak selalu dimarahi.... 5. sering didoakan... "

Well looking at that 5 reasons... which one is within thier control... ?... my answer is none... none of those.... All 5 reasons are beyond the kids control...

I told Azim... " I don't quite agree with your teacher... " my reason is very simple... " if you want to succeed it is not because of other people... it must be because we want it to be" ... " never blame others if we can't achieve what we want... they are just obstacles... " " you won't feel the joy of success if you don't overcome the obstacles" ... (wahhh berfalsafah mama nih)...

At this point of time... I was quite angry... with the information being penetrate into the kids mind. If let say the kids are from the broken family... does that means they can take that for not doing good in their study?... they can just blame the parents.. or If let say they are from poor family... should they blame the parents.. for not being able to provide them with the proper meals?.. HOW COULD WE TEACH THE KIDS ON BLAMING OTHERS WHEN WE FAIL....
I told Azim to tell his teacher on my view... haa haa haa.... don't think Azim would... but at least he knew... always think before saying something... the impact we could create.

Previously ... Ammar came to me and informed me on the information he got during his motivation seminar in school... the phrase from the motivator/teacher goes like this " kalau kita x belajar pandai-pandai... nanti kita akan kerja macam orang yang kutip sampah tu... nak kerja macam tu ker?" what do you think the answer form the kids.....? YAAA ... lah kan? How if one of the kids in the motivation class... bapanya ialah pekerja kutip sampah? how would she/he feels? Bila dengar cerita Ammar... hati ni geram sungguh.... rasa nak hempuk jer motivator tu.... suruh p kelas belajar respect people's profession...

Ni lah masalahnyer dengan sistem pendidikan kita... Too much of A's in the teacher's mind.. they've forgotten the need of other value things in our life... that is RESPECT...

Successful is guaranteed if you know how to respect and appreciate what you have right now. The journey will become smooth for you..

Taekwando

Grading

Last Saturday... my kids went for their taekwando grading

Sarah is going for his 7th grade.. still yellow belt. Syasya to the next level that is blue belt the 4th grade... whilst Ammar to his Red belt, 2nd Grade.

Sarah and Syasya... are still in the hurayy mood... attending taekwando classes and the grading ... just for fun... Ammar on the other hand.. had shown his concentration by the move and the posture placing.

Azim? Sir Khoo will always say this to him " very obedient son" . Azim will have his grading this coming November... Sir Khoo wants him to complete his UPSR before the Black Belt grading...

If Sarah manage to get her 7th Grade.. she would be able to attend the sparring classes. So all 4 will be in the same class... Class gaduh2... hee hee hee

Tournament
Acara penting yang tak sempat bagi tau....

Azim & Syasya ... represent their school for the MSS taekwando tournament... Selalunya... in any tournament me and my hubby will assist the kids... but this time round since it is from the school... the teachers took over... Event pun hari kerja... so x leh nak p.

Azim got 3rd placing and will be representing the MSSD.. with other 2.....
Syasya.... a good exposure... I could say.... baru first time to the tournament. But the next day.. Azim sudah x larat... habis bengkak2 satu badan.... so mama nilah jd tukang urutnyer....
Azim of course very excited with his achievements ... an extra points for his co-curriculum..
An extra points means a lot to him as it will help him to get into to MRSM...(if he wants to)

Tapi tak kottttt!!!!!

Still Standing

Still can stand up straight... despite all the "burdens" being load on my back...

Left another 11days to go... a final briefing with the manpower/ staff for the event will be this Thursday and the group of sales personnel the next day... which is on Friday... The changes are still there... but my straight look tells them " please... no more changes" ... perhaps they could understand....

Today I managed to complete my entrance draw card.. the numbers now are 2030 and the lucky draw arrangement + the job justification. Tomorrow I will have to do my Administrative programme... need to complete them by Wednesday.. before the first briefing. Alhamdulillah... everything is in order...

Can't sometimes understand myself... Would only be able to complete thing... after office hour... the only time I can focussed on my tasks... other than that ... I opt to borak with my fellow colleagues... What else can I say.... they loved to be around my area... and get me borak2 with them...

The best part is.... the whole day... punya thinking on how to arrange my event... finally siap within 1 hour .... after everyone in the office hilang.... that is quality time....

Tomorrow will be another day... for me...

The age thinking

Starts my office hour with a mug (xxl size) of Oatmeal... being in this age .. I have to start to control my intake... less rice, less sugar, less chocolates (oh no... my fav) ... more fiber and more plain water... But sometimes still took those... hee hee hee ... I'm not the living dead... just to compliment myself...

I've lost a friend due to liver failure, I do have officemate with heart problem, we are all the same age. There are numbers of them out there... are facing health problem... Wouldn't want to be part of it... so it is better for me to adjust mylife now...

Ah merapu pulak......

The day goes on with the Knowledge Management.. meet.. Today is more on sharing our successful stories... Don't feel like sharing anything today... but were called to .... hee hee hee..... It is so obvious if i didn't offer or contribute any ideas... I started with sharing my age... nothing to hide... I'm happy with my age... some people I met were saying this " you don't look like 35" but some will say... " are you sure you are 35? I thought you are 40", hee hee hee.... I really don't mind what they feel about my age... what I feel about me is much more important... after all it is the only " age " things they are reffering at...

I even met the people with a stunt look when my kids were with me " Your kids? I thought you are not married... " when I introduce my kids to them... It could be either... "heyy you are so young .. and yet you have a grown up kids!!!"... or ... "who wants to marry you... ?" or any other possible answers to it. Be it... I don't mind. I just laugh...... It's only an opinion/view from someone...

The KM meet ends... during lunch hour...

Me and my two colleagues... off for lunch at mamak restaurant...

oppssss it is now 2.55pm... this is the time I were born... must be crying at this time 35 years ago....

continue...
Had my lunch ... suddently feel like having some rice... a small portion should be okay (i guessed... hee hee hee) dah lama x makan nasi... but.... actullay baru yesterday I had a bowl of rice at Raku Restaurant, Concorde Shah Alam... yesterday ada lunch appointment.. and they set the venue at the Japanese Restaurant... Intersting place and very cozy.... Oh no.... baru nak cut down ... rupanya makan juga.......

Currently my brain is quite packed with all the changes made for the coming dinner... have to put it aside... wait untill late afternoon after the staff balik... then I will have peace of mind to adjust the necessary things....

Do I feel like 35 now? hee hee hee.... no, I don't .... I can sometimes be 7, when I think about those days... and I could be 16 or 17 when I think about my secondry school... and I can be any age I like ... but definately not more than 35.... hee hee hee.... simply because I don't know what it could be like... never been there yet...

Love my life... love my family, love my friends and love my love.....

Another big Day

It's my 35th year... Breathing and getting all the great things Allah created for me.

The second year... I have to work during my important day..
Would normally went to the cinema and do a bit of shopping just to mark my own day.

But today... it will be filled with meetings .. wu hu...
Yet still something for me to remember...

Wishing myself the greatest day ahead.

My Day

Alhamdulillah...

Tinggal lagi 17 hari to my event in Genting.

My customers list sudah siap. My communication with Genting done... last payment.. about to out already... Seperti biasa additonal untuk this last end memang ada... nak masuk awal.. balik lewat... nak bilik besar... cancel x mau bilik.. tambah bilik... nak connecting room... semua ada... Skng ni bila bangun pagi.. kepala dah pening dulu... terbangun sbb sakit kepala... itu belum masuk office lagi tuh..... belum ngadap pc....

Last week.. memang dalam sejarah diri ini arranging tables for the customers.... pertama kali... semua HOD itu setuju terima with very little pindaan.. itupun diorang adjust sesama sendiri... gue ini tidak terlibat... Sebelum tu pun boss dah kata to me... " I leave it to you to decide" masa tu mmg terkejut gak arr.... sbb tak leh nak refer... tapi at last... bila semorang setuju... boss pun okay... Alhamdulillah

Tapi hari ni... telah ku lipat kemas2 kerja2 lain dalam kepala ni... jangan bagi ganggu urusan hari ini.. iaitu.. my lucky draw things...

Today dah nak buat entrance draw card, total 2010. Dah print cuma nak cut and staple ajer.... tapi 2010 tuhhh!!!

then nak siapkan voucher for items yang besar2, pastu nak arrange barang atas stage and tepi stage... then nak coordinate timing ngan emcee punya script.... yaaa laaa scrip emcee lagi.... erkkkkk pengsan......

Wish me the best...

Ada keje... tapi sempat blogging jap... hee hee hee

Big Day

My son. My eldest son is sitting for his UPSR trial today.

He woke up as usual... nothing seems to be so important for him today... (well that makes me worry). When I said this to him " good luck abang, in your trial... hope u can do your best" this was his answer " mama.. tolong hantar abang ma" my reply will of course " okay... hari ni mama hantar".

Azim sangat relax... betul-betul relax...

Mama ini yang risau... sebenarnya I'm not worry samada Azim boleh jawab soalan atau tidak... what I worry most... ialah.. kebolehan Azim berhadapan dengan pressure... to meet time and to answer within time given. Betul atau tidak jawapan.. for me itu bukan pokok persoalan... yang penting... is he ready for the pressure...

So far nampak okay... sbb tu dia nampak sangat relax...

Harap-harap anak mama okay sepanjang trial ini.

Sometimes rasa lawak juga... anak baru sit for the trial... mak dia dah huru hara....

Itulah rasanya jadi mak....

Genting Dinner

Left another 5 weeks for me to pulun my tasks.

Urghhhh!!!! boleh terasa penat yang bakal datang itu.....
Time being the cust. lists dah dapat almost 90% so all the rooms dah boleh confirm by now.
Left only the job justification for me to get extra manpower.. Showed the list to my big boss... so far he is okay with the number....

Next week will be the time for me to start arranging for the lucky draw items... from comparing the prices from supplier up to selecting the items... then to ensure the goods reach us within the date or rather time given...

Then to arrange the lists accordingly... in which I need to make sure.. which items for the entrance draw and for the lucky draw... and which suppose to go to the stage and which suppose to be on the side of the stage... Ini adalah bab yang agak pening sikit... sbb... ada dua side... A & B...

By next week juga dah nak kene buat jemputan for VIP next to do the follow-up call .. then send the invitation card with table number... to those yang confirm nak datang.... wu hu! challenging sungguh kerja2 cam ni...

Next week juga ... floor plan for cust seating dah nak kene siap... so far dah dapat for that 200 table... now nak tentukan siapa duduk mana... part ni paling susah... sbb semorang berebut nak letak cust. diorang kat depan.... masa ni.... adalah masa paling kene sabar sekali.... hee hee hee

The rest 4 weeks... adalah masa untuk melayan aktiviti berubah... di sana.. sini....
Aktiviti ini sangat pasti... dan selalu berlaku... setiap satu benda nak diubahnyer.... tambah buang... tambah.. buang... 4 weeks terakhir adalah week untuk headache... jd selalunya masa ni dah kene standby ubat migrain...

Need to take care almost every single aspect... from the customers requirements... the event administrative programme, the briefing, the goods arrangement, the vips, the staff/manpower.. (makan, tempat tido, list kerja).... Arghhhh kerja ni memang syiok... tapi penat giler....

Wish me the best... Hope I could be able to coupe with my tasks just like before...

Hopefuly this event akan berjalan dengan smooth...

Project of the Month

Baru ajer nak buat project ngan kawan... p Konsert Siti Nurhaliza... this coming 27th... alih-alih terpaksa cancel sbb masalah ticket... Punyalah usaha my friend to got the ticket... very unfortunate for us for not being able to get any...

So project for this month terpaksa lah dibatalkan... Well the first time my friend suarakan cadangan ini... I was very excited.. when I asked my hubby for permision... he said Yes (yeahoo!!!!) and the kids...said the same thing to me... " mama pergilah dengan kawan2 mama... mama tak pernah pergi keluar dengan kawan2" wahh sporting sungguh anak2 gue ini....

Apakan daya kita hanya merancang Allah yang menentukan... project akhirnya terpaksa dibatalkan... Well tak dak rezeki nak merendek ngan kengkawan...

Anyhow... an invitation by my senior from SMPW thru FB, menggantikan semua perasaan terkilan itu... We the SMPW : senior and junior... are going to have a great gathering this coming August.... Wahhh!!!! best sungguh... lama tak jumpa kengkawan dedulu... mesti meriah...
From what year ... doesn't matter... so long as... semua bekas pelajar SMPW.

Can't wait to see all of them...

Lumut Perak

Amat sukar untuk merencanakan sebarang perjalanan sepanjang cuti sekolah tatkala kebizian melanda....

Akhirnya perjalanan/percutian dapat juga di rencanakan ... off we go to Lumut Perak, semua ini kerana ada majlis perkahwinan yang harus dihadiri di Pantai Remis on Sunday.

Lebih kurang jam 11.30 our perjalanan dimulakan dari rumah ke Lumut... melalui jalan-jalan kampung memang menyeronokkan. Merentasi pemandangan hijau kawasan sawah padi di kiri dan kanan jalan. Anak-anak begitu teruja dengan perjalanan ini.

We reached the hotel lebih kurang jam 3.30 petang, setelah puas mencari dan mengenalpasti jalan yang perlu di tuju. After check in, rest sat dan keluar semula selepas jam 6 petang... bersiar-siar di Lumut Waterfront yang terletak hanya beberapa meter dari kawasan penginapan kami. Lama rasanya tak melihat laut... saujana mata memandang... Ramai juga keluarga yang berkunjung di sana. Our family adalah mereka-mereka yang memeriahkan lagi suasana petang di sana.

my adorable kids : sempat berposing kat verandah hotel
me + syasya + sarah

me and my kids

Thought of having dinner kat KFC ajer... tapi bila memikirkan Lumut sangat mudah untuk mendapatkan Seafood, I suggested that KFC boleh di Shah Alam but here we should go for seafood... Memandangkan time dah maghrib... kitorang balik Hotel dulu... mandi & rest sat... Then keluar balik at 8.30pm. We tried to look for the best restaurant in town... Memandangkan Lumut is not our area... maka bila ternampak ada Restaurant macam best sikit, langsung kitorang park and enter the place.

This is where the disaster starts in Lumut.
Sampai Restaurant at 9pm, amik menu sendiri, nak tunggu amik order lagi beberapa minit...
dapat minuman jam 10pm... pastu air gula pulak tu... sbb malas nak bising... kitorang mintak a jar of plain water.. which takes about 5 minutes for them to deliver. At about 10.30 I saw the meal (I supposed ours, by looking at the dishes) , but very unfortunate , sbb itu meal belongs to other people... who came later than us... was very annoyed at that time... langsung I told the kids to walk off the Restaurant. My hubby paid for the drinks RM10. Sian anak2 dah lapar sangat.... so those yang p lumut never ever enter RESTAURANT BAKAU D'MUARA (CAWANGAN LUMUT). nasib baik tak bawa camera... kalau tidak... tentu dah masuk my blog gambar itu...

Akhirnya patah balik semula ke KFC, Syasya dah mengantuk. so we decided to have our late dinner kat bilik hotel ajer.... after beli the Chicken... balik hotel and terus makan... sian anak2 terlalu lapar... (ini semua gue punya pasal... sibuk nak cari seafood konon...ish.. ish...ish...)

Anyway by 12mid I dah knocked out... anak2 mungkin lewat dari itu.... sbb layan tv. Bila sedar... anak2 dah berborak sesama sendiri.... (tak tido aper budak2 ni) rupanya dah 5am... awal sungguh anak2 bangun...mungkin teruja untuk mandi di kolam renang.... but first we have to get our breakfast at 7.30am. After solat subuh... I borak2 ngan anak2, plan programme seterusnya... my hubby masih tido... penat agaknyer memandu dari Shah Alam ke Lumut.

By 7.15am we have already dalam lift, nak p tuju for breakfast. About half hour juga lah kat sana... Then turun p pantai.... main air laut... best dan nyaman sungguh suasana itu...
I told my hubby that I would get the kids towels and camera, and the kids may proceed to the pool. Masuk jer dalam air... my kids dah huru hara.... my hubby temankan... (ramai benar public takkan myself nak masuk pulak... hee hee hee) Tengok anak2 dah lama tak main air ni memang seronok... masing2 nak tunjukkan kemahiran masing2. Terjerit2 panggil " mama tengok ni" Best tengok anak2 gembira macam tu.....

After 12... kitorang dah bertolak ke Pantai Remis... 1.30pm terus ke Taiping.. dari rumah pengantin... Since my hubby tak jumpa jalan keluar... (pusing2 kat Taiping ) I took over the stering... Let this lady driver... bring us home... hee hee heee

6 hrs driving memang memenatkan... sakit pinggang... sbb jammed... patutnya ( berdasarkan pengalaman) tak lah selama tu... sbb dulu masa I drove dari Penang ke Shah Alam pun amik masa 3jam setengah... inikan pula Taiping.... leteh sungguh.

Sampai rumah... mandi... makan sikit... and tido... Monday nak keje...

NENEK (2)

Bila baca posts sendiri tentang nenek... semakin sayang dan rindu pada nenek.

Acara yang paling best buat ngan nenek ialah tengok wrestling... nenek pun cam wrestling sama... tapi aku inilah yang jadi mangsanya.... event ini berlaku setiap malam rabu...

Other than wrestling ialah makan kuih kat pondok depan rumah nenek... itu aktiviti petang, I myself memang tak keluar berjalan. Keluar hanya jika pergi kerja atau cari buku kat jalan TAR. lain-lain hal lepak rumah and borak2 ngan nenek and makcik2 and sepupu yang masih kecil2.

Pernah juga beberapa kali p Mc D kat Bangsar dengan Nenek dan Moktat (makcik) masa tu Mc D tu bukak sampai jam 2 pagi. Biasanya diorang akan tunggu me to settle my homework dulu baru p jalan and supper (lah kot) kat sana....

Masa kecik dulu... umur dalam 9-12 tahun bila bulan puasa nenek selalu panggil minta temankan pergi surau. Actually my house is very near to the surau... whilst my grandma's jauh sikit... from my house to hers kene jalan turun bukit... maknanya kene pimpin nenek naik bukit untuk ke surau, then pimpin semula balik rumah bila dah habis solat terawih. Hari -hari without fail...

When I was in form 3, I lepak rumah nenek.. dapat bilik bujang... sbb my auntie pindah duduk ngan kawan dia sbb nak dekat dengan tempat kerja. Bosan juga tido sensorang... so selalunya tido ngan nenek kat ruang tamu depan bilik... nenek tido atas tilam ... tapi bila pagi... gue ini yang ada atas tilam... nenek kat lantai.... Teruk sungguh gue ini kan??? hee hee hee Sorry ya nenek...

Nenek tak pernah marah, walaupun sekali to me... orang2 lain selalu le..... tp kalau kat belakang tak tau la.... hee hee hee.

Aktiviti mencabut uban nenek ni sampai form six (pekerjaan paling lama sy bertahan) pernah satu ketika nenek suruh tarik rambut... sbb nak buang angin... so spt biasa... amik rambut sikit2 pastu tarik sampai bunyi... bila orang lain buat... nenek tak puas hati... nak gue ini juga... baru best ... nenek katalaaa.... sebenarnya I rasa... sebab pekerja ini telah lama berkhidmat maka pekerja ini tahu... keperluan majikannya....hee hee hee . Bila rambut tu ditarik tercabut semua... bila nenek tanya " nape tu Ein" slow ajer suara nenek (sbb tgh tido) I then said "tak der aper nek" tapi itu rambut sudah gue sorok... then I pandang moktat... pastu kitorang gelak-gelak.... bila nenek tau sempoi jer dia kata " len kali tarik la elok2... hah sambung balik"

nenek... nenek.... tak serik langsung... botak kang baru tau...

NENEK

Agak lapang hari ini... so banyak entry boleh dibuat.

NENEK... wanita yang paling best dalam hidup ini.

From young, belum sekolah lagi, I really love to be with nenek, she loves cooking... she thought me how to cook.. tak kiralah kuih muih melayu ker.... masak rendang ker... and apa apa jer lah.... Tapi belajar masak dengan nenek macam nak belajar Kung Fu.... nak buat currypuff ? hah.... nenek suruh kupas ubi keledek dulu... berbakul-bakul naik penat tangan ni... siap hitam2 kuku dibuatnya... adalah makan tahun baru nenek ajar buat kulitnya.... siap petua lagi... masa tu akal ini kurang faham... merungut jugak la kat nenek masa tu... nenek jawab "buat satu-satu dulu".

Nenek memang berniaga kuih muih dan makanan kat kedainya di Pudu Raya... no kedai C19. Jadi hari2 kerja2 membuat kuih kat rumah nenek akan berlaku tanpa henti... paling tak best ialah part kemas... tapi disebabkan latihan macam latihan Kung Fu. maka terpaksalah juga berkemas....

Bila masa lapang... seperti biasa... nenek akan panggil " Einnnnnnnnnnnn, marila kejap" kawasan kat rumah kitorang tu kawasan bukit... so bila nenek panggil kene jerit... dengar je suara nenek... I would sure run to her house... dah tau apa projek nenek.... MASAK ? oh no.... no... nenek suruh cari uban... 1 uban.... 10sen.... memandangkan uban nenek agak banyak dan x habis2.... dan tengkuk ni pun dah sakit... I would cabut bila nenek dah tertidur... tapi sometimes terkantoi... baru nak bangun jer... nenek kata... "sebelah lagi.... tak baik buat kerja separuh jalan" hemmmmm kene duduk balik.... kadang2 cakap gak ngan nenek " penat la nek" then nenek kata " sikit jer lagi" Adusss nenek... nenek..... DAPAT UPAH TAK? mestilah dapat.... tapi 20sen jer ahhh... tapi masa tu 20sen memang banyak... dapat beli KUM KUM...

Sampai besar , I memang suka lepak rumah nenek... bila nenek menjahit I would duduk sebelah dia... then tolong masukkan benang ker... atau betulkan skoci mesin jahit Singer nenek....

Nenek ada buat kedai kat dapur belakang... masa ni nenek dah tak buat kuih lagi... sebab orang lain dah tolong take over the kedai, anak angkat nenek sendiri ... nenek cuma amik duit sewa ajer... My duty pagi2 ialah kemas kedai nenek... and timbang tepung and gula and beras sekilo atau setengah kilo.... at the same time... nenek bagi port kat area situ for me to start my own business... jual buah... modal nenek bagi... barang nenek sediakan... tinggal rajin kita ajer nak buat atau tidak and jaga untung rugi.... Biasanya setiap kali habis jual... I would tell nenek berapa untung... bila nak pulangkan modal nenek., nenek akan kata... untung simpan ... modal tu roll untuk esok... jadi modal awal bagi kat nenek untuk nenek belikan lagi buah for tomorrow... cam tu lah hari2 kat rumah nenek....

Untung my biz and biz nenek tidak dicampur, tapi bila p sekolah nenek suruh amik sendiri duit dalam laci menjahit nenek, jujur sendirilah nak amik berapa... tapi if perlu banyak I will tell nenek... berapa I took. Nenek okay jer... and senyum.

Masa kerja lower six dulu... bila bulan puasa.. nenek akan tunggu hingga saya pulang. Nenek akan berdiri di tepi tingkap panjang menghadap ke jalan naik kerumahnya. Bila masuk jer rumah, nenek akan tanya... "nak makan sahur dulu? nenek dah simpankan lauk" masa tu rasa macam sayu juga.. sayangnyer nenek kat aku ni... Lepas sahur awal ngan nenek... baru tido. macam tu lah hari2 sepanjang bulan puasa.. Sebab tu sekarang ni... bila bulan puasa ingat kat nenek... and dah beberapa kali bulan puasa , nenek akan duduk with me.... sehingga raya. Bila raya baru nenek p rumah anak dia.

Sayang pada nenek terasa di seluruh genap tubuh ini. Wajah nenek sangat redup dan rajin tersenyum, sentiasa mengajar saya supaya bersabar, jaga mulut, jangan irihati kat orang lain, and one thing for sure... amalan nenek baca yasin setiap malam Jumaat tak pernah dilupakan sehingga saat ini.

SAYANG GILER AH KAT NENEK.

Cerita nenek akan disambung lagi... kerana hidup bertemankan nenek memang best.

Apa ada pada June

June adalah bulan yang penuh dengan keraian...

Bermula dengan My Ann... pada 1st then my youngest bro Adi, punya b'day this coming 7th the next day will be my elder bro Berd, on 8th last but not least my one and only sis on 18th.

Bulan June juga sangat pack.... sementelahan bukan ini adalah bulan closing yearly budget... which means... banyak report nak kene submit.

Bulan June juga bulan pertengahan tahun, dengan kata lain first half of the year dah nak habis.... second half of the year is coming.

Setakat June ini... jika dikenang2kan kembali... apa yang kita dah isikan. Pilihan untuk dikenang adalah dalam tangan kita.... positif atau negatif.... As for me... saya dah jumpa apa yang saya cari selama ini, saya telah temui jawapannya... dan saya sangat bahagia dengan jawapan yang saya temui itu. Sungguh.

Selepas June ini my elder son akan ada peperiksaan percubaan UPSR ( baru UPSR mamanya ini dah kalut giler... hee hee hee) . Tapi I just leave it to him to decide what he wants... and how far he can go... adalah bergantung kepada keupayaan dia buat masa ini. Azim ada life sendiri... sepertimana saya tidak suka orang menentukan hidup saya masa dulu... I will let Azim decide his.... and I will always be there to support him and guide his path... Same goes to my other kids... tiada bezanya... But must make sure the eldest kene betul dulu..

June bulan cuti sekolah.... bulan orang kenduri kawin... sebab tu June ramai orang sambut Ann. and tomorrow, saya dan family akan ke Lumut, Perak. Best dah lama tak bawak anak2 jalan jauh.... Sunday ada wedding nak attend.... as for saturday... kitorang boleh jalan2 kat area lumut.
Will be back on Sunday itself .... and work the next day.... wu hu!

Bila June tiba... sebenarnya jantung ni dah berdegup kencang.... manakan tidak GENTING DINNER is coming.... again....... and its very near.... June ini semua kerja2 untuk Genting Dinner harus disapkan so that any ammendments atau changes... masih ada masa untuk diperbaiki.... Bulan ini akan penuh dengan meeting and dicussion.... OT and OT and OT.... pas tu lunyai ... hee hee hee hee

June pasti akan datang lagi.... tapi kita sendiri entahkan boleh jumpa June ni lagi atau tidak.

aku dan kenangan (form 6 - my study)

Belajar masa form 6 memang paling best... sementelahan kita adalah senior kat sekolah...
My lower 6 sangat penuh masanya... dari kerja hingga belajar....

Cikgu form 6, paling sporting... full of discussion... ini adalah pertama kali I duduk kat row ketiga dari depan.. dalam kelas... Selalu jugak laa ponteng kelas... seminggu adala sekali.... penat sebenarnya... tido pun 3-4 jam jer sehari...

Pernah cikgu panggil dan tanya " Daing , kalau asyik tak datang kelas... macam mana nak belajar?" answer saya pada cikgu... " tahun ni jer cikgu... sy ada hal sikit... next year saya okay... and saya akan dapat 5P... cikgu jangan risau" Don't dare to tell the teacher that I have to work to ensure I could continue my study... silap2 haribulan... masuk asrama balik.... tak mau gue...

Since dah janji ngan cikgu cam tu (sebenarnya... jawapan nak selamatkan diri)... maka I have to keep some money every month like RM300 for my upper six... sbb masa tu x leh kerja... dah nak amik STPM.

Masa lower six, apa saja buku kene beli... I just grab it... sementara ada duit...

When I was in Upper six... I settled my own barang sekolah... and really looking foward for my STPM, Payah jugak la... masa ni... kene jimat lagi... banyak magazine nak beli lagi... nak buat paper lagi... so untuk pastikan sentiasa ada income... I would tolong my auntie jaga anak2 diorang masa cuti sekolah...

There was one day, I jaga my sepupu kat Gombak.. first time gi sekolah dari gombak... naik bas no 41, 6am dah tunggu bas... nasib memang tak baik laa masa tu.... sampai sekolah at 8am.... pas tu jumpa lak ngan HEM baru... hah langsung kene tahan... DETENTION CLASS... adusss.... x leh masuk class... kene duduk kat open hall....

Kes ini berlaku masa dah nak dekat STPM... I was quite keras hati masa tu... the next day terus tak p sekolah, dalam hati " so what, I biaya diri sendiri untuk belajar, I had to sacrifice my time to work and to earn... I can amik periksa kat swasta..." that was my thinking...

agak2, 2 minggu lah tak p sekolah... untill my teacher Pn Nor Adib, called pujuk balik sekolah... and my friend Vimalla... juga pujuk I... cair gak arr masa tu... sbb cikgu and my friend yg duduk kat sebelah took the initiative to get my number... ( I lepak umah mak kat Shah Alam masa tu) , akhirnya I p sekolah... tapi syarat HEM untuk terima semula ialah I have to get my guardian to be at the school the same day I jumpa HEM untuk minta maaf, siap suruh bawak surat lagik...

Fikirkan balik, okay lah.... STPM is just around the corner... minta maaf bukan perkara susah... nasib baik I've got my auntie tolong... pakat ngan dia apa nak jawab ngan cikgu... tapi gue ini kene sembur ngan dia dulu larrr... hee hee hee

Lepas settle kat pejabat HEM... I ran to my class... rindu sebenarnya.. nak ada balik dlm class.... Still remember.. my friend bersorak bila nampak I datang balik... cik Nor Adib peluk I, dia bilang... jangan buat lagi... masa tu... rasanya... hidup kembali bermakna... kerana I knew they love me.... THANKS CIKGU AND FRIENDS

Masa form 6, memang banyak aktiviti luar darjah... antaranya kene p court... so kitorang pun pegi arr court dari mahkamah sesyen sampailah mahkamah Agong... semua session kitorang p....
Ada satu kes di mahkamah Agong... masa tu... hakim nak jatuhkan hukuman... both tertuduh adalah suami isteri berbangsa cina, dituduh menyimpan dadah... ... bila hukuman dijatuhkan the wife nangis and pengsan... anak2 diorang meluru p kat kandang tertuduh....

Kitorang? blur sat... sbb itu adalah kes sebenar... then terdengar suara polis cakap cam ni " sesiapa yang tak berkenaan dengan keluarga tertuduh, diminta keluar dari bilik mahkamah" bila kitorang pusing belakang... rupanya kitorang ajer yang bukan keluarga tertuduh..... (lawak gak arr masa tu....sbb mcm tak tau plak mmg kitorang bukan keluarga tertuduh)

Ada lagi kes kat mahkamah sesyen kat jalan duta... hampir sekelas kitorang p sana... masa duduk kat dalam tu... the magistrate tu quite cute gak arr... disebabkan kitorang ni semua perempuan yang masuk... maka... konsentrasi Tuan Magistrate itu agak terganggu gak arr... sementelahan kitorang pandang dia ajer.... kan nak belajar (hee hee hee) subjek paling lawak masa lawyer bercakap ialah tentang cincin belah rotan.... " apa? itu cincin boleh belah rotan?" itulah reaksi lawyer bengali tu masa tu.... kitorang gelak2 tapi hakim sudah " order.. order"
best betul masa tu....

After attending the court case, kitorang kene lakonkan dan buat persediaan untuk persembahan... after perancangan yang rapi dan skrip yang di taip hingga ke subuh hari... maka persembahan court kitorang mendapat ucapan syabas dari Pn Hasnah Hamid, cikgu PA kitorang.... sbb dia ingat buat dlm kelas jer... tp kitorang buat kat dewan... jemput cikgu2 jadi juri... and case kitorang juri pun tak leh selesaikan.... best sungguh masa tu....

Bila STPM menjelang, masing2 dah buat hal sendiri... I studied consistently... dinding kat dlm bilik kat rumah nenek penuh dengan notes, 1 dinding 1 hari.

Lepas periksa semua buat urusan masing2, but kitorang sempat p Pulau Batik utk rest bersama2.

Masa amik result STPM, I dah tak berapa kisah berapa keputusan yang dapat....
Bila pergi jumpa Pn Nor Adib nak amik result cikgu tu tak mau bagi.... dia kata dia kecewa dengan keputusan saya.... "alamak" ... risau gak arr masa tu ... disbbkan cikgu tak mau bagi... tak per lahh... I just greet other friends yang dah 4 bulan tak jumpa dan cikgu2 lain juga....
from cikgu2 lain I knew... sebahagian result....

Pn Noriyati (Sastera) congrats me for getting P for her paper, I was one of the four yang lulus paper dia.... hee hee dah lepas satu paper.... (sastera ni tak pernah amik... STP baru amik)

Then went to other cikgu... dah ada 2 extra P, maknanya dah ada 3 P.... Oklah I thought... 3P 2R pun dah kira bagus....

I Then went back to Pn Noradib... This was what I told her " cikgu, sy dah tau keputusan saya... skng sy dah ada 3 P, cikgu tak perlu kecewa lagi...." cikgu then pusing dan Peluk saya.... sangat kuat.... " Daing.... tahniah... awak dapat 5P, awak buat seperti yang awak janjikan pada saya, saya sangat bangga dengan awak" mendengar itu... I myself mmg quite surprise... my other friends dah bersorak.... (they knew the things I went thru to be in that shoe) .... nangis gak arr masa tu.... 5P lulus semua subjek and hanya 4 orang sahaja termasuk me....

Alhamdulillah... The first person I called of course my beloved GRANDMA, dia juga berkorban untuk kejayaan ini.... SAYANG NENEK SANGAT.... AND NENEK YOU ARE THE BEST...

aku dan kenangan (form 6)

Lepas periksa SPM... saya kerja di Komtel Paging Service kat Brickfields KL... untuk saya yang single mingle and duduk lak ngan nenek... gaji yang dapat adalah lebih dari cukup...

Masa result SPM kuar ... I took leave... p amik result... yesss dapat pangkat 1, berbaloi duduk asrama.... dengan result yang boleh dikatakan agak baik masa tu... I applied for U, RESULT...? x diterima masuk... yang dapat ialah sambung form 6.

Well since I love studying... I terus terima form 6... why not... I told myself ... I must complete my journey... lets see how far can I go..

Masa lower 6, I mohon dari my office to allow me to work for the second shift.. that is from 4pm -12mid... My reason, I need money for my study... Alhamdulillah they allow me... but I need to work for morning shift on Saturday and Sunday whilst Friday will be my off day... I'm okay with that condition...

My day starts as early as 5.30am... bangun, mandi, solat, makan ngan nenek atau kalau tak sempat... nenek bekalkan nasi lemak atau roti canai yang nenek buat sendiri every morning. I still remember... I was the only malay girl yang bawak bekas air sebesar alam... (I love plain water)

Class ends only at 1.30pm... masa ni terpaksa rush balik rumah nenek... kalau naik bas 1 1/2 hour lagi baru sampai rumah itu maknanya dah jam 3... sedangkan waktu tu... I dah kene gerak p tempat kerja... masuk kul 4... kene swipe attendance card b4 3.45pm... Maka balik rumah adalah lebih baik dengan teksi ajer... (well masa tu kan kaya lagi... hee hee hee... duit sendiri...). Bila balik ngan taxi, I would reach home paling lewat at 2.30pm... ada half an hour for my Zuhur, mandi and makan... biasanya x sempat makan... sbb nak kemas beg sekolah untuk the next day and cuci baju sekolah + sidai terus. Yang paling penting kerja sekolah harus pack masuk beg... nanti waktu makan malam boleh siapkan kat office...

By 3... I left for Komtel, naik taxi juga... (masa tu taxi murah tak sampai RM5) by 3.45 should be able to reach there... At 4, semua yang second shift dah ada kat terminal... at this hour line mmg agak busy... but by 8pm line dah sedikit clear... masa ni baru boleh p makan... 45min ikut giliran... I would normally p makan kat building YMCA ada gerai kat situ... habis makan terus balik office... ada gak ketikanya... mereka2 yang tak dikenali belanja... segan + takut gak arr masa tu... jadi I sentiasa minta tolong ngan abang2 yang keje kat tempat yang sama tolong secure me....

By 10mlm, line betul2 clear.. ... at this hour.. the supervisor allow me to do my homework, YES masa yang ditunggu2, must siap kerja sebelum jam 12... masa tu pulun balun arr kerja sekolah...
bila dah siap pack balik masuk bag...

Bila sampai rumah dah agak dalam pukul 1 - 1.30pagi... jalan nak naik ke rumah nenek agak jauh juga dari tempat van syarikat berhenti... I consider myself sebagai orang yang berani tapi pemalu... hee hee hee... BERANI... amik risiko kerja sampai malam untuk sambung belajar... and PEMALU... sbb tak suka nak jumpa hantu... or benda yang pelik2 mlm2 cam tu...

Sampai rumah... cuci kaki... time ni tak yah mandi... nenek ku bilang don't ever mandi malam... nanti sakit dada... pesan nenek ku akur jua.... Letak barang and kemas buku untuk sekolah the next day... baju sekolah pun terus gosok... nanti esok tak kalut....

By 2. - 2.30am... kalu keje sekolah siap tido... kalu tidak... siap bagi habis...
next day nak bangun awal untuk another... exciting day....