Finally the day has come. Aisyah off to Australia for 3 years. Leaving Sarah... wondering what was happening.... I believed Aisyah feels the same way.....
Saying good bye only thru the phone.... how sad to see Sarah almost burst to tears... The feelings of loosing someone...
My hubby drove the car like 120km/hr in heavy rain that night... just to reach airport in time... The flight was supposed to be at 9.30pm, Sarah didn't know we were about to take her there... just to meet Aisyah.... I told her "Baby this destination will be secret for the next half an hour, till then you can't ask me where we are taking you to"... My other kids... didn't know as well... they keep silent..... Me and my hubby would normally tell the kids wherever or what ever the plan that we have... and the kids would contribute idea on what to do.... But this journey remain secret... since there were no street lights and the rain was like blocking the kids view.... they can't event guess where we were heading to....
During the journey I received a phone call from Aisyah's mom... she promised to call me when Aishah reached KLIA.... I handed the phone to Sarah.... she was happy talking to her thru the phone.... but she didn't realise that she wouldn't see her for the next 3 years....
What is three years for us ??? the adults.... but it would probably be a long period for the kids... Since Aishah is very closed.... I mean very... very closed the Sarah.... I knew both of them will feel empty or rather lonely for the first few months.... They both are the same age... they both were born in November 2001... it is only that Sarah was born 6 days earlier than Aisyah... Sarah 5th and Aisyah 11th. Their faces are look-a-like....
It took us 35 minutes from Shah Alam to KLIA... Sarah told us she wanted to meet Aishah in Kelantan.... poor baby.... She thought Aishah was in Kelantan with the grandparents... whereas Aisyah was at the Bangi's Grandparents... My heart beat was like stopped for few seconds... she didn't understand that Aisyah was actually leaving Malaysia..... I didn't stop praying that they are still at the main area...
My hubby dropped us at the main entrance.... he himself will find the parking... as I enter the hall I rang Aisyah's mom... asking her which alphabet should I go to.... " sorry!!!!! she said... were already in.... they have already called several times.... sorry.... sorry..." What can I say.... the fate is like that.... maybe it is better that way.... if the two girls meet it may be different story then.... they might cry.... they might feel extra hurt.... I don't know....
The poor Sarah... then asked me " mama.... why are we here....??" I replied " we are here to meet Aisyah, she is leaving for Australia tonight.... it is very unfortunate for us that we were late and they have already chk in... " Again Sarah almost cry.... I then quickly said " Anyway we are already here... we can mingle around for a while.... after all... we didn't come here for quite sometimes...." " how about going to the viewing area... let see if we can see her flight" I added....
That word is enough to cherish her again... and of course the siblings also around to comfort her...
We sat at the viewing area.... looking at the dark night thru the glass wall.... few flights touch down... some are ready to fly off.....
The announcement of the flight which carries Aisyah and the Parents would take off awaked us... I called Aisyah's mom... could this be the girls last long conversation.... no answer.... She then returned my call... again I handed the phone to Sarah.... they chat... " Aisyah... I heard the call for you to board the flight" " now I'm looking at your aeroplane" "bye Aisyah.... remember me always ya.... I'll wait for you when you come back"...
After looking at one of the flight taking off ( wasn't quite sure if it was the one ) we went home.... Sarah silent all the way.... My hubby asked her.... "Sarah... what are you doing... why are you silent" of course we are afraid that she will keep her feelings inside... we then get this answer " I'm sleeppy", oh what a release....
The rain was still pouring.... the journey home is much longer .... the meter shows 80km/hour
Bye Aisyah... If you are reading this.... do know that Abang Azim, Abang Ammar & Kakak Syaya will also miss you... and maybe Haritz too....
Friday, November 28, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Three days without Abdul Azim
Tanggal 21 November yang lalu... me & my hubby hantar my eldest son to Motivation Training Camp at Kem Suara Rimba Hutan Sungai Congkak.... that was the first time I left my kid with strangers.... fortunately his double cousin was there too...
Hoping that he would be able to make friends and explore other than his ordinary life... me and my hubby shop for camping items few days before.... to encourage him to go... My son felt reluctant at first... but me... being a person with list of camping site I went to during my school days... said this to him " best abang... nantikan abang dapat buat macam2... ada jungle tracking... night walk... and a lot of things... sampaikan bila habis camping abang rasa macam tak nak balik.... syokkkkk" " mama pernah camping kat sana dulu... tempat tu best sangat..." then added this " kalu mama diberi peluang... mama je yang pergi..."
3 Days 2 nights... My son duduk kat sana.... as a mother.... I sangat terasa suasana yang sunyi bila my eldest tak de...... even the siblings felt the same....
Day 1
We left Shah Alam, about 3.00pm... need to reach the destination somewhere around 4.30 to 6.30pm... barang2 dah siap masuk dalam kereta... Perjalanan took around 2 hrs... siap sesat jalan lagi... map kurang tepat.... so we decided to look for signboard / signage... we don't talk much in the car during that day.... cuma when we reached the kampung area... my kids started asking this and that.... masuk area sungai Congkak... we saw a lot of camping site... sayangnya tak tersusun langsung.... sampai je venue... my hubby park the car... terus p register.... I assisted Abang Azim with his new camping bag and sleeping bag....
Masa tu dah ramai orang registered... Azim was asked to put his things at the hall area on the first floor... when he came down, he had to join other participants for tea... sempat salam my hubby... Ammar, Syasya & Sarah pun salam & cium tangan Abang Azim... I peluk my son and wish him all the best.... We then left him there... masing2 senyap sepanjang jalan pulang...
On the way back we all singgah kat Sate Kajang Hj Samuri.... tengah makan teringat kat Abang Azim.... we then said.... biasanya Abang Azim akan habiskan sate ni.... ( tak pe lah bang sate tu bukannya sedappun.... sedap lagi sate kat sec 9 Shah Alam) ... sunyinyer tak de Azim....
Sampai Shah Alam kitorang pegi Alam Sentral... to look for baju taekwando baru untuk Ammar.... Kedai lak dah tutup rupanya pindah ke sek 18, nak balik rasa macam bosan & sunyi ( itu baru sorang anak tak dek.....) so kitorang lepak makan ice cream sundae MC D, dah kat 11pm baru balik rumah.... ( arrggghhhh sunyi nyer tak de Azim)... Tido....
Day 2,
Early morning siapkan baju taekwando anak2 ... my hubby cuci & jemur kain... bila the other three dah pergi Taekwando Class... I amik peluang untuk kemas rumah... punggah almari & kemas balik.... penat jugak laaaaa..... bila anak2 balik dari taekwando we had a late breakfast.... awal pagi, hari taekwando tak leh heavy breakfast... nanti time class termuntah pulak.... habis makan dah pukul 11 pagi... I sambung kemas rumah.... sedar2 jam dah pukul 3... p makan nasi ayam kat Anggerik dulu lahhhh..... ( terasa bila Abang Azim tak de ni....), sampai rumah My hubby drop us kat depan jek sbb dia nak gi Gym.... My kids yang lain terus naik atas... tengok TV.... about 5.30pm I joined them.... mood nak masak tak dek... sbb yang tigorang ni bukan makan sangat.... biasanya Abang Azim will request things....
Somewhere around 6.15 my parents datang dengan 2 lagi anak abang I... diorang pun boring tak tau mana nak p.... tapi tak nak lepak lama rumah I sbb diorang nak berjalan2 lagi... Ammar minta izin ikut atuk & nenek.... Kesian Ammar... Abang tak de... dia tak de kawan.... at least my anak saudara lelaki tu boleh gang ngan dia for that night..... lepas Ammar siapkan baju terus ikut atuk & nenek jalan2.
Me, my hubby and the two girls... bertambah sunyi.... so kitorang pun pusing2 menghabiskan minyak kereta..... makan.... then p tesco... menghabiskan duit lak..... huuu huuu
by the time kitorang reached home dah pukul 12.00mid, syasya & sarah terlalu penat berjalan.... semorang terus tertidur.... I still teringat kat Abang Azim..... apalah abang Azim buat masa ni.... boleh ke Abang tidur... lena ke..... selesa tak.... dalam hati ni tak tau nak rasa apa.... I want my son to go thru this... at the same time I plak yg takut dia tak boleh adjust himself with the new environment ..... Mama rindu sangat kat Abang Azim.... argghhhhh biarkan I have to be strong myself..... anak tak ape2 mak lak lebih2... hee hee heee
Day 3
We had early breakfast.... now without Ammar & Azim..... as for Ammar I don't mind, he is with my parents.... I sambung kemas rumah.... my hubby p pasar.... tengahari he has to fetch his parents for kenduri kawin.... Sarah ikut my hubby.... I sambung kemas barang2 dari pasar.... by 2.00pm my hubby sampai rumah.... kat luar panas giler.... masuk rumah je hubby I terus terbaring kepenatan..... " awak tau tak... Sarah kan... masa kat rumah orang kawin tu.... siap mintak gula2 untuk Abang Azim, Ammar & Syasya.... selamba jeeee" my hubby told me..... ya I know Sarah memang cam tu.... apa pun abang & kakak tak pernah dia lupa....
Then I said this to my hubby " awak sedar tak.... we never check the background of the organizer... we simply send abang..." " we also never ask for the module" " just because your cousin informed us about the activity..... and we were so excited about it" " we had never been like this" I added non stop.... " mcm mana kali ni kita boleh belasah jekkkk" then my worries yang merapu2 comes " tah2 bila nak amik abang... diorang tak de kat situ.... tah mana2 diorang angkut anak kita" ....
By 2.45pm kitorang siap2 nak amik Azim.... tapi kene fetch Ammar kat my parents' hse dulu.... Lepas amik ammar kitorang terus p Sungai Congkak..... tak sabar nak jumpa my Azim.... by 4.15 we reached there.... masa tu orang ramai sangat.... mungkin untuk second group kottt.... agak tercari2 Azim.... then I ternampak selipar Azim.... rupanya Azim disebalik pokok..... Masa jumpa Azim nampak terlalu penat.... senyum pun susah..... sian anak mama.... Alhamdulillah Azim sihat dan selamat....
Kitorang terus balik.... abang Azim tak henti2 cerita seronok nya dia masa 3 hari tu..... adik2 yang lain diam khusyuk mendengar cerita abang..... I know Azim gained a lot of things during the event..... Sampai IKBN, terpaksa patah balik.... Azim tertinggal shirt & track bottom.... bila dah ambik balik pakaian yang tertinggal tuh....kitorang terus kan semula perjalanan pulang ke rumah.... 2 jam jammed dari sungai congkak ke pekan ..... sampai rumah Abang Azim knock out.... tak boleh bangun sampai pagi.....
Kenangan dulu
Camping Cadet Polis di Sungai Congkak : 5 hari 3 mlm
That was the place a friend of mine nampak someone suddently came out from a huge tree... dekat tepi sungat tpt kitorang mandi... my Junoir Cadet masa tu tengah nak ambil jam tangan yang tertinggal kat akar pokok besar tuhhh.... hah apa lagi... menjerit histeria lah my friend tu.... My self ??? nampak je berani... tapi penakut ..... bila the Fasilitator tu informed us about the matter... I gelabah dlm hati.... alamak.... nak visit ke tak nih.... I dah lah ketua Platun masa tuh..... adoiiiii.... then Fasilitator advised us not to visit... takut jangkit kat orang lain.... selamat........ That was story when I was in form 5....
Hoping that he would be able to make friends and explore other than his ordinary life... me and my hubby shop for camping items few days before.... to encourage him to go... My son felt reluctant at first... but me... being a person with list of camping site I went to during my school days... said this to him " best abang... nantikan abang dapat buat macam2... ada jungle tracking... night walk... and a lot of things... sampaikan bila habis camping abang rasa macam tak nak balik.... syokkkkk" " mama pernah camping kat sana dulu... tempat tu best sangat..." then added this " kalu mama diberi peluang... mama je yang pergi..."
3 Days 2 nights... My son duduk kat sana.... as a mother.... I sangat terasa suasana yang sunyi bila my eldest tak de...... even the siblings felt the same....
Day 1
We left Shah Alam, about 3.00pm... need to reach the destination somewhere around 4.30 to 6.30pm... barang2 dah siap masuk dalam kereta... Perjalanan took around 2 hrs... siap sesat jalan lagi... map kurang tepat.... so we decided to look for signboard / signage... we don't talk much in the car during that day.... cuma when we reached the kampung area... my kids started asking this and that.... masuk area sungai Congkak... we saw a lot of camping site... sayangnya tak tersusun langsung.... sampai je venue... my hubby park the car... terus p register.... I assisted Abang Azim with his new camping bag and sleeping bag....
Masa tu dah ramai orang registered... Azim was asked to put his things at the hall area on the first floor... when he came down, he had to join other participants for tea... sempat salam my hubby... Ammar, Syasya & Sarah pun salam & cium tangan Abang Azim... I peluk my son and wish him all the best.... We then left him there... masing2 senyap sepanjang jalan pulang...
On the way back we all singgah kat Sate Kajang Hj Samuri.... tengah makan teringat kat Abang Azim.... we then said.... biasanya Abang Azim akan habiskan sate ni.... ( tak pe lah bang sate tu bukannya sedappun.... sedap lagi sate kat sec 9 Shah Alam) ... sunyinyer tak de Azim....
Sampai Shah Alam kitorang pegi Alam Sentral... to look for baju taekwando baru untuk Ammar.... Kedai lak dah tutup rupanya pindah ke sek 18, nak balik rasa macam bosan & sunyi ( itu baru sorang anak tak dek.....) so kitorang lepak makan ice cream sundae MC D, dah kat 11pm baru balik rumah.... ( arrggghhhh sunyi nyer tak de Azim)... Tido....
Day 2,
Early morning siapkan baju taekwando anak2 ... my hubby cuci & jemur kain... bila the other three dah pergi Taekwando Class... I amik peluang untuk kemas rumah... punggah almari & kemas balik.... penat jugak laaaaa..... bila anak2 balik dari taekwando we had a late breakfast.... awal pagi, hari taekwando tak leh heavy breakfast... nanti time class termuntah pulak.... habis makan dah pukul 11 pagi... I sambung kemas rumah.... sedar2 jam dah pukul 3... p makan nasi ayam kat Anggerik dulu lahhhh..... ( terasa bila Abang Azim tak de ni....), sampai rumah My hubby drop us kat depan jek sbb dia nak gi Gym.... My kids yang lain terus naik atas... tengok TV.... about 5.30pm I joined them.... mood nak masak tak dek... sbb yang tigorang ni bukan makan sangat.... biasanya Abang Azim will request things....
Somewhere around 6.15 my parents datang dengan 2 lagi anak abang I... diorang pun boring tak tau mana nak p.... tapi tak nak lepak lama rumah I sbb diorang nak berjalan2 lagi... Ammar minta izin ikut atuk & nenek.... Kesian Ammar... Abang tak de... dia tak de kawan.... at least my anak saudara lelaki tu boleh gang ngan dia for that night..... lepas Ammar siapkan baju terus ikut atuk & nenek jalan2.
Me, my hubby and the two girls... bertambah sunyi.... so kitorang pun pusing2 menghabiskan minyak kereta..... makan.... then p tesco... menghabiskan duit lak..... huuu huuu
by the time kitorang reached home dah pukul 12.00mid, syasya & sarah terlalu penat berjalan.... semorang terus tertidur.... I still teringat kat Abang Azim..... apalah abang Azim buat masa ni.... boleh ke Abang tidur... lena ke..... selesa tak.... dalam hati ni tak tau nak rasa apa.... I want my son to go thru this... at the same time I plak yg takut dia tak boleh adjust himself with the new environment ..... Mama rindu sangat kat Abang Azim.... argghhhhh biarkan I have to be strong myself..... anak tak ape2 mak lak lebih2... hee hee heee
Day 3
We had early breakfast.... now without Ammar & Azim..... as for Ammar I don't mind, he is with my parents.... I sambung kemas rumah.... my hubby p pasar.... tengahari he has to fetch his parents for kenduri kawin.... Sarah ikut my hubby.... I sambung kemas barang2 dari pasar.... by 2.00pm my hubby sampai rumah.... kat luar panas giler.... masuk rumah je hubby I terus terbaring kepenatan..... " awak tau tak... Sarah kan... masa kat rumah orang kawin tu.... siap mintak gula2 untuk Abang Azim, Ammar & Syasya.... selamba jeeee" my hubby told me..... ya I know Sarah memang cam tu.... apa pun abang & kakak tak pernah dia lupa....
Then I said this to my hubby " awak sedar tak.... we never check the background of the organizer... we simply send abang..." " we also never ask for the module" " just because your cousin informed us about the activity..... and we were so excited about it" " we had never been like this" I added non stop.... " mcm mana kali ni kita boleh belasah jekkkk" then my worries yang merapu2 comes " tah2 bila nak amik abang... diorang tak de kat situ.... tah mana2 diorang angkut anak kita" ....
By 2.45pm kitorang siap2 nak amik Azim.... tapi kene fetch Ammar kat my parents' hse dulu.... Lepas amik ammar kitorang terus p Sungai Congkak..... tak sabar nak jumpa my Azim.... by 4.15 we reached there.... masa tu orang ramai sangat.... mungkin untuk second group kottt.... agak tercari2 Azim.... then I ternampak selipar Azim.... rupanya Azim disebalik pokok..... Masa jumpa Azim nampak terlalu penat.... senyum pun susah..... sian anak mama.... Alhamdulillah Azim sihat dan selamat....
Kitorang terus balik.... abang Azim tak henti2 cerita seronok nya dia masa 3 hari tu..... adik2 yang lain diam khusyuk mendengar cerita abang..... I know Azim gained a lot of things during the event..... Sampai IKBN, terpaksa patah balik.... Azim tertinggal shirt & track bottom.... bila dah ambik balik pakaian yang tertinggal tuh....kitorang terus kan semula perjalanan pulang ke rumah.... 2 jam jammed dari sungai congkak ke pekan ..... sampai rumah Abang Azim knock out.... tak boleh bangun sampai pagi.....
Kenangan dulu
Camping Cadet Polis di Sungai Congkak : 5 hari 3 mlm
That was the place a friend of mine nampak someone suddently came out from a huge tree... dekat tepi sungat tpt kitorang mandi... my Junoir Cadet masa tu tengah nak ambil jam tangan yang tertinggal kat akar pokok besar tuhhh.... hah apa lagi... menjerit histeria lah my friend tu.... My self ??? nampak je berani... tapi penakut ..... bila the Fasilitator tu informed us about the matter... I gelabah dlm hati.... alamak.... nak visit ke tak nih.... I dah lah ketua Platun masa tuh..... adoiiiii.... then Fasilitator advised us not to visit... takut jangkit kat orang lain.... selamat........ That was story when I was in form 5....
Monday, November 3, 2008
Tangkap Muat
Every morning since last three weeks... I tuned to Sinar FM... Morning talk by KR, KE & SY...
Would wait and listen to SY new translated songs... funny giler ahhhh...
There was a topic discussed about "emosi', some caller called to share thier emotion and there were some yang only sms... still remember an sms by a teacher it says " geram betul dengan budak2 ni mcm aku tak mengajar pulak.... ada ke pulak soalan siapa tokoh negara dijawabnya, Farid Kamil" (sound something like that laaaa.....) , then the DJ said maybe the student watched Hati Malaya....
At that point of time I memang gelak.... gelak besar giler..... ini adalah tahap2 student yg tangkap muat bila dah tak dek jawapan nak bagi.... yg penting kertas jawapan tak kosong....
That actualy remind me of my classmate when I was in std 6. My teacher Cikgu Siti Rohani ( arwah ) tgh tanda kertas jawapan sejarah kat rumah..... then she told us she can't stop laughing looking at the answers... and she has to share it with us....
The Question was... " Namakan 5 Bugis Bersaudara yang datang ke Tanah Melayu"
and my friend's answer was " 1) Daing Merewah 2) Daing Perani 3) Daing Celak 4) Daing Kemboja 5) Daing Zarina.... ( heee heee heee...... ) answer no. 5 tuh sbb tak ingat saudara yang lagik sorang tuhhhh..... so nama aku pun menjadi penyelamat jawapan....
I still remember... his name is Hafizul Ali....
Masih lagi ada spesis Hafizul Ali kat Malaysia nih...... tah tah tu anak dier.... haaa haaaa haaaa......
Would wait and listen to SY new translated songs... funny giler ahhhh...
There was a topic discussed about "emosi', some caller called to share thier emotion and there were some yang only sms... still remember an sms by a teacher it says " geram betul dengan budak2 ni mcm aku tak mengajar pulak.... ada ke pulak soalan siapa tokoh negara dijawabnya, Farid Kamil" (sound something like that laaaa.....) , then the DJ said maybe the student watched Hati Malaya....
At that point of time I memang gelak.... gelak besar giler..... ini adalah tahap2 student yg tangkap muat bila dah tak dek jawapan nak bagi.... yg penting kertas jawapan tak kosong....
That actualy remind me of my classmate when I was in std 6. My teacher Cikgu Siti Rohani ( arwah ) tgh tanda kertas jawapan sejarah kat rumah..... then she told us she can't stop laughing looking at the answers... and she has to share it with us....
The Question was... " Namakan 5 Bugis Bersaudara yang datang ke Tanah Melayu"
and my friend's answer was " 1) Daing Merewah 2) Daing Perani 3) Daing Celak 4) Daing Kemboja 5) Daing Zarina.... ( heee heee heee...... ) answer no. 5 tuh sbb tak ingat saudara yang lagik sorang tuhhhh..... so nama aku pun menjadi penyelamat jawapan....
I still remember... his name is Hafizul Ali....
Masih lagi ada spesis Hafizul Ali kat Malaysia nih...... tah tah tu anak dier.... haaa haaaa haaaa......
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