Tuesday, June 2, 2009

aku dan kenangan (form 6)

Lepas periksa SPM... saya kerja di Komtel Paging Service kat Brickfields KL... untuk saya yang single mingle and duduk lak ngan nenek... gaji yang dapat adalah lebih dari cukup...

Masa result SPM kuar ... I took leave... p amik result... yesss dapat pangkat 1, berbaloi duduk asrama.... dengan result yang boleh dikatakan agak baik masa tu... I applied for U, RESULT...? x diterima masuk... yang dapat ialah sambung form 6.

Well since I love studying... I terus terima form 6... why not... I told myself ... I must complete my journey... lets see how far can I go..

Masa lower 6, I mohon dari my office to allow me to work for the second shift.. that is from 4pm -12mid... My reason, I need money for my study... Alhamdulillah they allow me... but I need to work for morning shift on Saturday and Sunday whilst Friday will be my off day... I'm okay with that condition...

My day starts as early as 5.30am... bangun, mandi, solat, makan ngan nenek atau kalau tak sempat... nenek bekalkan nasi lemak atau roti canai yang nenek buat sendiri every morning. I still remember... I was the only malay girl yang bawak bekas air sebesar alam... (I love plain water)

Class ends only at 1.30pm... masa ni terpaksa rush balik rumah nenek... kalau naik bas 1 1/2 hour lagi baru sampai rumah itu maknanya dah jam 3... sedangkan waktu tu... I dah kene gerak p tempat kerja... masuk kul 4... kene swipe attendance card b4 3.45pm... Maka balik rumah adalah lebih baik dengan teksi ajer...
(well masa tu kan kaya lagi... hee hee hee... duit sendiri...). Bila balik ngan taxi, I would reach home paling lewat at 2.30pm... ada half an hour for my Zuhur, mandi and makan... biasanya x sempat makan... sbb nak kemas beg sekolah untuk the next day and cuci baju sekolah + sidai terus. Yang paling penting kerja sekolah harus pack masuk beg... nanti waktu makan malam boleh siapkan kat office...

By 3... I left for Komtel, naik taxi juga... (masa tu taxi murah tak sampai RM5) by 3.45 should be able to reach there... At 4, semua yang second shift dah ada kat terminal... at this hour line mmg agak busy... but by 8pm line dah sedikit clear... masa ni baru boleh p makan... 45min ikut giliran... I would normally p makan kat building YMCA ada gerai kat situ... habis makan terus balik office... ada gak ketikanya... mereka2 yang tak dikenali belanja... segan + takut gak arr masa tu... jadi I sentiasa minta tolong ngan abang2 yang keje kat tempat yang sama tolong secure me....

By 10mlm, line betul2 clear.. ... at this hour.. the supervisor allow me to do my homework, YES masa yang ditunggu2, must siap kerja sebelum jam 12... masa tu pulun balun arr kerja sekolah...
bila dah siap pack balik masuk bag...

Bila sampai rumah dah agak dalam pukul 1 - 1.30pagi... jalan nak naik ke rumah nenek agak jauh juga dari tempat van syarikat berhenti... I consider myself sebagai orang yang berani tapi pemalu... hee hee hee... BERANI... amik risiko kerja sampai malam untuk sambung belajar... and PEMALU... sbb tak suka nak jumpa hantu... or benda yang pelik2 mlm2 cam tu...

Sampai rumah... cuci kaki... time ni tak yah mandi... nenek ku bilang don't ever mandi malam... nanti sakit dada... pesan nenek ku akur jua.... Letak barang and kemas buku untuk sekolah the next day... baju sekolah pun terus gosok... nanti esok tak kalut....

By 2. - 2.30am... kalu keje sekolah siap tido... kalu tidak... siap bagi habis...
next day nak bangun awal untuk another... exciting day....




Monday, June 1, 2009

me and my cake and my weekend

Jumaat lepas... I was on leave... bake and prepare 2 wedding cakes and cuppies for b'day..

Kerja2 bermula seawal jam 3.30pagi....

Aktiviti pertama yang dilakukan ialah... bake the cake... since my customers tak kisah type of cake... so I just go for the same type of cake for all three orders. First cake masuk.... after 1 hr siap.... when I tested the doness ada sikit melekat kat besi tuh... tah mcm maner laaa I boleh bawak keluar cake tu... and masukkan the second one.... after a while I noticed... the first cake sudah ada tenggelam kat tengah.... aduhhhhh frust giler.... then terpaksa lahhhhh do another mix.... again. in which I have to measure the whole ingrediens again.....and layer the tin again.... kek yang tenggelam tu??? hee hee potong dan makan laa...

by 6.30am I dah start layan fondant deco untuk first cake.... since the cone susah nak buat (sbb x pernah buat) so I decided untuk settle dulu yang tu.... at least cone tu boleh kering cepat....
Since tak pernah buat... maka cone itu... telah melalui proses yang sukar dimengertikan... buat... x jadi... buat lagi...x jadi... pastu buat lagi.... x jadi... ngapa ekkk??? bila jam dah menjelang 7.30am ... I decided to put them aside... kene settle kan cake yang nak di pick up at 3.pm...

8.am... I dah mula buat flower untuk the blue theme cake.... customer mintak letak purple orchid.... so I terus buat 5 orchids.... kene standby extra... sbb bila buat nanti kalau masa tengah letak terpatah ker... at least adalahhhh orchid dah ready untuk cover.... bila letak the purple orchid.... color x leh ngam..... cam ner nih.... at last .... I put another color... yellow.... to match the blue...

10.30am... baru boleh cover cake dengan fondant.... sbb the cake dah completely sejuk....
half an hour jugak laaaa... nak adjust the size yang boleh cover the cake.... (aritu p kedai jual barang wilton... tengok the special mat for fondant .... urggghhhhh mahal giler.... dekat RM200... itu baru nmat jer tuuu ..... ) alhamdulillah akhirnya by 11.00am kek dah boleh cover....

11.00 am... I tanya anak2 dah pukul berapa.... bila tau dah jam 11am I was a bit gubra... hee hee belum buat decoration langsung.... I tarik nafas dalam2 pastu tenangkan fikiran sat.... I know can I make it before 3pm...

11.30am, I attached the first flower.... the turntable is very help full.... by 12.30 first layer flower dah siap... alhamdulillah.... I bangun sat..... stretch badan skit.... arghhhh penat pinggang dan tengkuk.... at tweleve... cikgu syasya datang jemput syasya and sarah.... (whynot auntie bus??) sebab syasya ada rehearsal untuk persembahan hari guru.... teman syasya & sarah sat kat luar... jumpa cikgu dulu... borak sikit .... pas diorang bergerak... I masuk sambung kerja....

12.40noon.... I kemas rumah... clearkan area nak buat keje.... the area must be clean.... kek I transfer ke ruang tamu dulu.... kemas dapur sat.... lap meja kerja tadi... susun semua barang.... sapu lantai.... dan duduk kejap.... nak rehat otak kejap.... and mandi.... fresh sikit...

1.15pm .... letak balik first layer cake dan sambung the second layer.... sebenarnya bila first layer dah siap... second layer boleh buat laju sikit.... sbb idea dah banyak....

3.00pm 1st cake dah siap....

hasilnya......

Ingat nak rehat sat.... penat giler ahhh..... tapi fikirkan balik.... ohhhh tidak boleh.... the second pick up will be after 7.30pm...

4.00pm... I started to cover the second cake with fondant.... and cover the board with fondant too.... dah siap letak tepi... biar kering dulu... then layan flower for the second cake.... since the customer requested all white.... jadi kerja senang sikit.... (sikit ajer ok...).. by this hour.... first cust. dah datang nak pick up..... after borak a while.... cust balik and I terus sambung kerja semula.... kali ni... otak benar2 penat.... pinggang apa lagi....

5.00pm.... terlalu letih dan penat .... then lepak kat sofa depan .. Azim and Ammar dah p ngaji... so I left alone ... rehatkan diri... pas tu borak ngan kawan thru phone.... sungguh mendamaikan.... perasaan dan pemikiran.... lari sekejap dari memikirkan ttg my cake... need to stimulate my brain....

5.45pm.... sambung kerja untuk second cake.... sudut cake harus dibaiki.... emmm nak buat aper ye.... oh ok... ada idea.... buat pearl.... susun keliling.....

6.00pm .... masa untuk buat cone yang pagi tadi tak jadi tu..... ( hah tinggal 1jam setengah jer lagi.... aduzzzzz).... buat cone... 10 jadi 1.... buat lagi.... adalah nak dekat 50 kali.... baru lahh dapat 12 yang diperlukan.... akhirnya by 7.30 cake ku sudah siap....

hasilnya.....
8.00pm... my hubby hantar the girls p ngaji and Abg Azim to kelas tambahan.,... Ammar kat rumah.... I took this moment untuk betul... kemaskan rumah... clean up my utensils... susun balik barang... lap meja.... dan betul2 kemas semua....

11.30pm my friend datang pick up...

pas tu titun.... penat arr....
titun ..... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz


Sabtu
Bangun 5.30am.... settlekan diri dulu.... baru p dapur.... alamak.... castor sugar sudah habis laaaa.... fikirkan balik.... tak per arrr... it is just cup cakes.... sonang yo....( wahhh eksyen sungguh)

I told my hubby I need to go to kedai for a while to get the castor sugar... Hubby I pesan p beli nasi lemak.... sampai kedai.... instead of beli nasi lemak.... I bought barang nak buat nasi lemak... and of course my castor sugar....

sampai jer rumah... terus siapkan my cup cakes... tadi pagi dah measure barang2 lain.... so now nak masukkan sugar ajer.... siap ajer masukkan 24 cuppies dlm oven... I terus siapkan nasi lemak untuk b'fast anak2...

Sarah datang tolong kupaskan the eggs adn siapkan meja.... My sambal ... is very easy.... I ni sebenarnya tak lah berapa rajin sangat.... so sebelum ni I dah awal2 masak cili.... yang dah dicampur dengan bawang2 and beberapa ingrediens lain.... so bila nak masak sambal just amik sikit and.... masak... and tambahkan apa yang nak ditambah.... sonang yo......

B'fast siap.... kek pun siap....

10.00 the cuppies dah sejuk.... baru boleh buat deco.... cust req. for colorful.... but dengan beraninya aku ini telah mengubah warna....( ishhh teruk betul...) sebenarnya... customer ni selalu order.... datang pick up kat rumah.... dan selalunya very colorful.... this time.... I go for black and white....

so this is the look.....
11.30 cust datang pick up.... yea... yeaa.... siap sudah urusan biz gue ini.... nak rest sat..... time ni baru boleh masuk nasi lemak .... tp sbb penat dari semalam x habis lagi... makan sikit pas tu ....
resssssssssssssssssssssssttttttttttttttttttttt............. wu hu...

June the 1st

Its my 13th Anniversary !!!

Friday, May 22, 2009

Dilema

When I was in UiTM... one of the paper that i need to study is the psychology. This is one of the paper that I loved most... at that time.... Understanding human behavior... understanding the perceptions.... by the look... the gesture... the voice... and the writing... so on and so forth...

Well this is not what I'm gonna say today.... here...
I'm not specialize in it... but somehow it has helped me to gain something...

This is what I want to share...

KADANG-KADANG ADALAH LEBIH BAIK KITA TIDAK TAHU TENTANG KEBENARAN... KERANA KADANG-KADANG KEBENARAN ITU BOLEH MENYAKITKAN... DAN MEMBUATKAN KITA DALAM DILEMA...

Had a communication with a friend this morning... She had just came to know that the sister's husband had an affair with his ex-girlfriend.... and the worst part is... the husband had kept the secret for quite sometimes.... years maybe....

She found out... that the husband's ex is married ....

(Rasanya baru saya tulis tentang monyet pertama sebelum nih.... )

Lets continue....

So now... both of them are married...

What & how should the sister act now??... marahkan suami? marahkan ex- girlfriend suami? marahkan situasi? atau marahkan diri sendiri?....

I don't know... If I were to be in this situation ( hope not ) I might cry.... " What have I done wrong... ".... that could be it.... Saya pernah berkata dengan diri sendiri... "jika ditakdirkan satu hari nanti suami saya berkahwin lagi satu.... emmm.... biarlah kerana itu sudah takdirnya... bukan kerana kesilapan saya" benar.... ini yang saya fikirkan... sejak dari awal perkahwinan saya.... tapi tak pernah lah saya bersuara kepada suami saya.... nak mati aper....??
Well itu kenyataannya... bila hakikat tiba... saya tak pasti keadaan saya masa itu....

Come back to my friend's situation....
Bagaimana the sister berfikir... how she behave then... adalah bergantung kepada pengalaman hidupnya dengan suaminya.....

Let's look further.... to the "ex-girlfriend...."
Why she behave that way.... why would she treat the husband that way.... how could she make other women suffer.....

Well that too... depend on how the ex-girlfriend relationship with her husband.... and what the ex-girlfriend experience with my friends brother in law....

This will contribute or rather answer the question.... WHY....

If the ex-girlfriend had a good life with the husband.... she would't layan that guy... and vice versa....

If I were in the "ex" situation... what would I do.... erkkkk???? me??? God help me.....
Dilema lah I...... apa lagi....... Seronok mungkin... sebab mcm baru bercinta.... tapi sampai bila???

Those who read this.... be in both situation....
Be fair to both wifes & be fair to both husbands
I'm sure... it happens a lot out there...
This is one of those being told to me....

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Monyet Pertama

Siapa itu monyet pertama... ??

Tell me if you never had one...

Everyone pernah face monyet ini..... itu adalah pengalaman pertama yang menyeronokkan.... Me and my hubby pernah bercerita tentang monyet pertama ini..... My hubby ada..... monyet pertama masa time tadika... as for me my monyet pertama, when I was in primary school... standard 1 or 2.... tak ingat sangat dah....

Monyet my hubby... sampai lower 6.... hampir kawin.... tapi tak der jodoh.... My monyet ?? emmmmm..... tergendala sebab salah faham.... itupun masa upper six baru dapat monyet kedua.... tapi kalu dah upper 6... umur dah 19 tahun... bukan lah monyet lagi.....

Monyet ??? ya cinta monyet.... cinta masa zaman sekolah2 rendah.... & menengah....

Baru2 nih ada terjumpa ngan my monyet.... memang lawak.... member dah kawin anak 1.... manakala myself dah 4....

My kids...

Pun dah mula ada cinta monyet..... mana I tau.... sbb anak2 tak pernah berahsia ngan mamanya ini... dan mamanya quite open minded

To me, cinta monyet bukanlah satu dosa.... ia hanyalah perasaan suka yang hadir lebih awal dari waktu yang sepatutnya... in which... sebenarya kita tak tau bila patutnya kita bercinta.... tau2 ajer dah suka....

Cintakan tak mengenal usia....

Friday, May 15, 2009

From my Adorable Kids

Happy Mother's Day...

It has been a week... since the celebration....
The feeling is still closed to me...
I'm a mother of four...
Have a mother, mother in law... and my dearest granny...

A day before, I've got some gift from Sarah & Ammar... whilst Syasya & Azim on the day itself.
Personally, I felt very touched with their thoughts.. seriously ....

A hug, kiss and love would be okay or should I say more than enough with me... but they go to the extend of buying things with their own pocket money... they put aside some for the past 2 weeks... just to show their ....... my goodness... I'm speechless.. no word could describe.....

Their thoughts... makes me crying inside... and still.....

Love them so much...
They are the greatest gifts from Allah

Monday, May 11, 2009

Nur Syasya Turns 9

Syasya dah 9 Tahun on 5/5/2009

As usual, I took cuti to be with her on that day...
She requested cup cakes for the friends....

Since that morning I was occupied with other things... termasuklah p amik IC Azim... I only managed to complete the 45 cuppies at 2.30pm... Azim & Ammar hantarkan...
Tapi sempat lah jugak makan kat Mc D... pagi tuh.... sbb dekat ngan JPN & dah tak tau mana nak makan lagik.... Mc D pun Mc D lah.....



b' fast kat Mc D...


cuppies for friends

Sunday 11/5 baru ada kesempatan untuk celebrate kat rumah....
Again baked the cake for her...
and the best part ialah my hubby grilled lamb... so that sunday night... we had...mushoroom & chic soup with garlic bread... grilled lamb shoulder... baked potato.... salad... and sky juice....



choc cake with fondant deco


The dinner we had.... sos cili jangan lupa ya.... i'm typical malaysian



lain2 pun teringin juga ada kek sendiri... so decorate lah sendiri.....

Mama & Papa.. sayang kan Syasya...

Semoga Allah sentiasa melindungi anak mama & memerikan Syasya kekuatan... keberkatan di dunia dan di akhirat.... Bijak... menghormati orang lain.... serta sentiasa disayangi oleh semua orang...